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Friday, November 27, 2009

hey there evryone .

oh great . im still not sleeping yet and i dont know why ?
i guess , its because that i slept during the afternoon . so like right now , i cant sleep already lahh hah ? so it makes it harder to sleep right now . Okayyyeee ~ So how have you all been lately ? especially my besties . I really miss all of you . Hope to meet you all dearies .

Lately , i've been getting it lots of troubles. Having so many problems . But im trying to keep hold on all of these . I believe that i call pull on this trigger . No matter how long it takes , i will make it happen . I will make all these problems fade away . By 2010 , i must ! so that , i could start the year right , happily and get that 'new year' feeling uh .

Well , yeah , yesterday ..While smoking with my fren , maya ..We talked and shared bout somethings . Then , got 2 guys sat beside us ... They came near us & fucked . We got caught by HSA . i dont know what the hell was that . && they asked for my pass . So i gave them & oh well , i had no choice . im dead , reall dead . Yeah . I got much more offence coz , i was the one who had those cigarettes . & obviously , underage smoking is an offence . I also forgot that , my working fren , Faiz , changed with me one stick & his was , Kontra cigarette . So , that adds in one more offence . Which was having 1 kontra stick . & i swear , i dont know how muchh all that fine will cost me . That ______ person , said that , the letter will come in 2 weeks time . & it is a summon . I will have to pay it . So , i couldnt help myself muchh lah on that point of time . Like people say , if you dare to do it , you also have to dare to face the consequences . yeahhp . & i will be facing it soon . Whats getting the problem to me is that , how will i get all those money . I mean like , 2 months salary will really paid that off ?

Not just that , i still have not told my mum yet . I dont know what MY world gonna happen if i tell her this ? & right now , my idea is to get that letter . If i can pay , i will pay myself . If not , i will really have to tell her . But what is she gets the letter ? thats also another big deal . Anyone have any suggestions or advice bout my problem ? just tag or text me aye . i need lotsa advise .

ohhh . next thing . relastionship .

As you see at the picture above . We both , look different indeed . Well , of course , it was taken 8+ months ago . This picture was taken on 16 March 09 , at 4.25pm . The day where we were officially together . & agreed to go through this relationship together up till now , currently i mean . I really miss that time . It was my the most precious day of my life . I was so in love into u on that point of time . & i could still remember our first kish . But like what all lovebirds in the world would say , every relationship has its ups and downs right ? yeahh , & curretly , this is my down . Well , i know that we both know , our love is fading and changing so much . I know that you can't love me 100% right now right ? Same goes to me . Truthfully even my trust for you is not fully 100% . After whatever that had happend recently . You should know what i mean right bby ? Yeah , you're working & im working . We dont have that time to meet each other . We both have trainings . & if wanna talk bout msg ?

Sometimes , im sure u wanna save ur ppd or whatsoever , afraid that your prepaid would be low . & even if wanna talk otf late at night , it aint happening anymore coz everytime when yu got back home , you'll be tired after a day of hard work . yesh , i know that . I can understand . I belive that you also feel that its really fading . But dear , we really could pull all these problems and make it right back . We could actually do something to make our love greater right ? i believe we can . but i need you to be with me , and we'll pass this together . Lately , i've been trying my best to talk things out to you . But sometimes , time wont gimme a chance to . So i've been thinking so much , and i guess this is ma only way to give out what i wanna tell you . & i hope after reading this , you could actually talk to me . I swear that im really missing the old us . The old you , the old me . How i wish , i could have you beside me now , and tell you how much i love you & how much that i dont want to lose you . I know , now is when we're having our problems . But i know that we will make it through as long as we keep holding on .

Khairil khusaini , i really really love you and i dont want to lose you . We're 8+ months now , entering 9 months soon , & without having any break apart . As for me , i cant believe that we made till this far n i hope that we could go further . Im really lucky to have you in my life . & until today , you're the only guy that i need so much in my life . I have always appreciated you . & even for your worst mistakes , i've forgiven you . But i hope your mistakes dont go till that extreme limits . Now , i just want to tell you that i hope we both could gain our love and trust back and love like how it was before .& as for the 9 mnth celebration , we could celebrate without any doubts . I hope you'll agree for what im trying to suggest right now . & i hope we can alwaes be happy .

I love you deeply & truthfully . I need you everyday with me . I miss you so much ..

1:42 AM sant[i]diot

broken hearted girl lyrics .

You're everything I thought you never were
And nothing like about you could've been
But still you lived inside of me
So tell me how is that

You're the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I loved and not forgive

And though you've break my heart

You're the only one

And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can't erase the times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now I hate you its pains me to say
I know I'll be there at the end of the day

I don't wanna be without you babe
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna to take breath without you babe
I don't want to play that part
I know that I love you but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kinder way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't want to play the broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl
I'm no broken-hearted girl

There's something that I feel I need to say
But up 'til now I've always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I wanna put this ou
tYou say you got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel your not deserving of me
And still you're in my heart
But you're the only one

And yes there are times when I hate you
But I don't complain
Cause I've been afraid that you would walk away
Oh but now I don't hate you
I'm happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day ....

I don't wanna be without my baby
I don't want a broken hear
tDon't wanna to take breath without my baby
I don't want to play that part
I know that I love you but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kinder way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't want to play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl, no, no .

1:13 AM sant[i]diot

Monday, November 16, 2009

hello welloooo (=

im back . im back . im back !

People , or say , readers , sorry for not updating for quite some time . okeyy ? forgive me yeah ?

Well , i've been busy with work and after work , i would be going out sumwer else . Yeahh . thats how it is . Superr tired after work , so decided not to on the lappy . Work have been fine lately , damn , i really miss schooling . Lol , eu noe , if school , at least eu get to learn more new stuffs .. and and discover more . Work ? Eu cant break rules .. and everytime do the same thing . But , its also a new experience tho . Now , i dont know , should i work and school , Or should i concentrate on school when it reopens ? any suggestions people ? Do tagggggggg !

So , lett me like talk bout todayy okeyy lahh hah ? hmmm , today , around 12 , had malay dance training . My leggss ang thighs are now so so so so crampp thanks to the dance . Its ma first time dancing a contemporary dance . it is fucking tiring ! i swearrrrr ! i sweeeaaarrr ! there's only 9 of us dancing . But the dance is kinda cool . and cant wait to dance next year for the cute lil sec ones . hahahahaha . okeokeoke . Yeahh , ended around 3 like that . Then , lepak2 with qin , zee , kak khiz . We huff and puff those cigarettes . Then , chao around 4.. I reached home around 4.30 like that .

around 6.30 like tat , meet boyfie under my block . We decided to eat at Parkway . I was superb hundry , Coz never eat e whole dayy . Yeahh . Then we walk2 around first . Ate at banquet . Then walk to ma home and he sent me home . Damn , i miss him like fucking badly . Then reached home around 8.30 :D ....

BBY ! HAPPY 8TH MONTHSARYYY !

bby ! i love you so muchhh . Happy 8th monthsary .

; Although you were very tired , eu still made an effort to meet me . & made my day really really happy by spending my time wif eu . I mean like after two weeks of not mitting you .. im really glad to be beside you just now . I realised that my love for eu now is stronger and it will still be building up . If ever i did a mistake to eu , or hurt eu , let me know , and i'll be sorry about it . I love you and i care for you . I need you everyday with me . I really hope that ma past wont happen the same way wif eu coz i believe ur different from any guy that i know . & that's what that makes me still wanna be with you . I really hope you'll love me always and treat me nicely . bluekkk ! bby , thanks for all those sacrifices that you made these far .. and whatever happens , i will still forgive you and love you ! i love you khairil khusaini !!! mwahmwahmwah .
since 160309 , 5.20 pm . (=

10:50 PM sant[i]diot

Sassy babe .

iLah Santi

Hey world .

Santi is my name .
amusingly 14 .
16 february , my happie dayy .
i'm not the best lover , but i'll try to last long.
i may be shy but yet friendly
I dont go giving rolling eyes to people , but instead a smile (=
I love my greatgreat friends & besties .

& lastly , enjoyyy . if not , click that X ehyy .

About her

i ain't the one
whom you can pick and choose .

If you dont know me ,
don't judge me.

Lets just be friends,
and never mess around .

get that , friend ?

Talk now .

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ENJOYY .

Mua' Babyboy

Blissfully attached .

8 months & still strong
I love YOU ,
Khairil Khusaini

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