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2011-02-18T20:49:00.003+08:00

SWEET 16 on 16th february (:

Had a great celebration with me and family . Also , with my classmates . Love the hotpink cake they gave me with my name on it . Thank you people . Still , havent celebrate with my love :(
Tmr , we will , okay ? Well , i don't really know what i actually want for my birthday coz all i think for is my o levels . Its on my mind 24/7 . Hmm , just want to pass through that , & i can be happy .

Had sports day earlier today . Although my house did not make it but i could swear to god that this year is the most awesome year for this event . I mean , we cheered like hell and gave our best shot . I achieved a gold medal for 100 relay . im GLAD that i took over two people if not , my group would get third . so YAYNESS , we got first :D However , im burnt like one black sotong now due to the scorching heat earlier today . Been very very very tired these few days beacuse of the unstoppable events i had the past week . Next thing , i just got to concentrate on SYF malay dance till early April and im done for the year ! Hence , it will all be about study , study , study . Hmm , okay . So that about it .

Recently , i've been emotional for several times . Due to some things . Well , i'd rather keep to myself bout this . Cause only i understand myself best . Whatever it is , all i know is that ....
this is LIFE . you can't expect it to go how you want it to be . Friends can convince you that they are true to you but someday , the truth is shown . Now , its hard for me to trust friends in a simple way . If i knew you would change to become like how you are now , i would not have taken things too seriously with you . Thanks for hurting and making me to become worst . But , i'll try to think of the bright side .

Some people are meant not to be in your life forever .

2011-02-14T22:41:00.002+08:00

Happy Valentines Day .

Don't really get to celebrate it as my baby is in camp . But nevermine , i'll still celebrate with him soon . Today im awfully sleepy , tired . I dont know what else to describe . Its worse than all those monday blues . I was so sleepy that i dont know what i was writing in class . Plus , classes end so late . It ends late everyday . Im strreeeessseeed up . Really stress . I just got to handle this pressure .

Currently , not doing anything . Just waiting for his call . Hmmm ..

You know , sometimes i wish i could go back to that december where our eyes met .
I dont want things to change in between .
Although , somethings hurts me now , i still have believe in you .
I really dont know whats going on .. But i really love you .
Its because i love you so much , im crying about you .
please god , dont let anything change between us .

2011-02-05T13:13:00.002+08:00

Hell yeah its a SATURDAY .

oh , and hello 5th day of February . How fast can this be huh ?

ohkay , dont ask about school . still the same old thing .

so what should i post today ? well , i dont know . Currently waiting for the time to bathe and then go out with my baby . So this month , the love is in the air . 14th feb would be valentines day . 16th feb would be my birthday , and 20th feb would be my my 14 month wif my dearest dee . I hope all will go smoothhh .. money may come in my way suprisingly but i dont know when . Well , all i got to think now is .. Whats my 16th aim ? Hahs , which means , what else i wanna do / or be when im 16 .. well people , the say cherish your teenage life right ? it only comes once , and furthermore , its the only point of time where you get to enjoy student fares , student prices and you dont have to pay for almost everything just of what are your wants . :D

okay , meeting my boyfriend at 4 , i still havent bath or get ready . how ? not gonna be late animore or not he will scream his lungs out , giving me that cute face to be angry of and me , trying to persuade him . :D

anw , wishlissssst for 16th.

1. Handphone please ?
2. New wallet .
3. Dresses .
4. necklace .

actually , there's nothing more i can ask for . I got everything currently . how ? Just surprise me lah huh? hahaha .

goodbye !

2011-01-23T22:48:00.002+08:00

When you ask me why i love you, i don't know what to say.
i love every part of you in every single way.but if you want specifies, i'll try to meet your wish.. and do my very, very best to make a simple list.
i love you for your arms that hold me every time.
i love you for your kisses, sometimes strong and sometimes light.
i love you for your patience that never seems to end.
i love you for the fact that i can call you more than a friend.
i love you for your lips that alwaes seem to smile.
when you look upon my face for just a little while.
i love you for your eyes that see deep within my soul.
i love you for your ability to always make me whole.

i love you for your honesty, i know you'll never lie.
i love you for your passion, so much it makes me cry.
i love you for your quirkiness and the little jokes you tell.
i love this and a million other things as well.

you see how hard it is to narrow it all went down.
there are far too many reasons, but one thing i have found...
a person who brings me up when i am down.

in short, i love every single thing that has to do with you ..

i love you baby ; Rudy Haryanto .

2011-01-22T14:24:00.003+08:00

hello SATURDAY !

at last , im fealing the heat of a saturday . The only day im freeeeee . and always spending this day with my dearest boyfriend . Love himm much xoxo .

Life's gone fine so far .. Been really really busy with school. This year , there is really no chance of relaxing or having the time to watch tv / play lappy or whatsoever , seriously . I end classes at 4+ to 5 .. at days , i have malay dance . How torturing this is ? But malay dance will only be till April . & after that , im free from cca . Next week , gonna start on my tuition already . Studies are killing me . But i have to give my greatest effort fro this year . Hope the end results will be a blessed one .

So , later on , would be going out to i dont know where. Hahs . i dont really kniw what are his plans . Currently cant think properly coz im having a bad bad migrane , flu and sore throat . Really hate it . I have to go school next week . i dont know why . haha . okay , stop spouting nonsence santi !

well well , i've got to get ready now . sorry for not keeping update much . Due to the busy schedule im having , i just cant . too bad :(

have a great day ! (:

2011-01-06T20:52:00.002+08:00

I really dont know why , 2011 is being really stressful . I mean , although i do not have much to do yet . But in the 3rd day , so many homeworks already . i have to do 3 mindmaps , 2 photoboard and like the time sketch for D&T . Plus , i have a malay olvl paper to finish up . My gawddd . Been really stress lately . With late dismissal . Its been so hectic and i just have no time for myself to rest .

Things have been all fine lately but i just wish some things could be better . I don't wanna think too much ya know . My schedule is just tight and i still have not included tuition . Its tight really . I've set my targets and some are really high . Example would be maths , its been years that i've not pass maths and how can i pass it by 7 months ? BUT , its Possibble . I hope i can do it . JUst afraid that i slack somewhere in the middle .

Well , just now we went to spore poly and i dont think im expecting myself to go there because its more to mechanics and engeneering . So im not pretty up to it. Im more to tourism , hospitality or events mangaement . Well , that , i could check later on . Now , i'll just have to focus and do my best (:

Now , got to go studyyyy ! & i dont know where the hell is my boyf now . haish .

goodbye !

sometimes , i wish you could read my heart . & know that i love you..

2010-12-31T01:43:00.002+08:00

i still cant sleep , really . Been crashing my head of planning what to do tommorrow to make it a great memorable time with my sayang . Poor thing , he's feeling tired after a hard day full or work with lots of deliveries . Well , at least i've planned and booked the movie tickets for tommorrow ! teeeeheee . Like can't wait for 2011 suddenly , i dont know why . I guess the only good thing that im already 16 next year . At least my age is 1 hahs . Coz i know that my face dont look like one . Anyways , i've been having fever , coughing and running nose for like 3 days already ? like Omgggggg , when is this gonna be over mann ? Heard e news just now , that there is this bacteria going around and the symptomps are like what i listed just now . So we have to see the doctor if we got these sickness . Shoid i see the doc? I dont want to coz its such a waste of money . Hence , i dont really eat the medication . *peace* .

Oh well , i hope that you all will really enjoy counting down later on .
right now , i just wanna go to sleep and look forward for tommorrow . No cock-ups pleaseeee .

okayyy , HAPPY NEW YEAR to all of you out there !

just tag me if you cannnn or want to XD .

2010-12-27T17:16:00.003+08:00

We were meant to live for so much more .

Ouhkay , today is a damn great to sleep all i can . hahs ! I woke up at 3.30pm . Oh my ! i must have forgotten bout the world. & yet , the best thing was that my line got cut due to overdue bills . & i was like what FUCKKK??? . Cheeebye sia ! I mean , please , its gettin in the end of year , cant it be cut on new year or something so that my mom do not have to always call me during countdown ! ahaaaaaa . Great , talked to my mom & all she does is those fucking naggings . and i go like , oh well , whatever . Now got to used prepaid . How in the hell do we use prepaid people ? I dont understand those free msgs, idds and whatsoever . Thats bcoz, i've been using line for my eentire life. hahas ! okayyy . Not wanting to talk more bout my line . Today , not going out at all . Cause i can't and i don't wich to . I've not been sleeping well and i'd rather be sleeping beauty today . So yeah , school's opening .. & i still have not study any single bit and some of my books are still not with me - i have not bought it . Maaaaalaaaassss lah !

Christmas was celebrated in johor -_-''' . Its nt that i want to , I had to . Wanted to go out with boyf but had to follow my family . So yeah , leena followed me there . We and family bbq all the way . My back bone was like cracking and i bbq until like 1am ? & i had to wake up at 5am ? my gawdddd . it was tiring . At least , that was over . Next thing , countdown ?

Hey, you know what ? i have no plans for countdown . There are many invitations but i just dont know where to go . Ask my bf , he just keeps saying , i dont know . Then, i also dont know lahh . ahahah ! seriously , 2011 is not welcome for me ! haha . I hate those Os . Its the Os thats killing me next year . So , im still figuring out where to go for countdown . Darmmmnn it .

2010-12-23T02:35:00.003+08:00

Sometimes , i just want things to be better left unseen .

Hello people , its showing 2.40 am and i still can't sleep . Thats because im
waiting for my dearest boyf to come back from johor . Dear , where are you ? You know im patiently waiting for you here right ?
i cant sleep , i cant sleep , i cant sleep .
Well , not been doing anything much now . Just preparing myselfn for sec4 . Actually , im like preparing it in an emotional way , not the physical way . haha ! seriously , its left 8 days before countdown and i could still shake my legs like december is forever . Next year , gonna be tight . With upcoming tuitions , classes and activities . I may fall , but there's still time to rise right?

kay, wanna lay back now ..

goodnight , oh no , goodmorning people !

2010-12-20T18:32:00.003+08:00

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Today , marks our 1 year anniversary ..

To my Rudy Haryanto ,

You gave the greastest love after all this months .

I really love you & just want to be with you .

For all those sacrifices , time , and other things you've done ,

i appreciate it & would treasure it ..

For the times we shouted at each other , cried for one another ,

being mad , felt hatred and lots of misunderstandings ,

I would still not give up this love and won't stop loving you .

Thanks for bringing our love this far .

Hopefully , in time to come , we could make this love grow better .

with the warmest hug & the sweetest kiss , i give to you .

& from the deepest in my heart , i love you , Rudy .

since 20.12.09
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Great time in hk .

2010-11-10T21:14:00.002+08:00

Hey there !

ohhhhh , santi is already in Hongkong ! teeeeheee .

Its great here , especially the weather . Its gonan be 13 degrees real soon. isnt that so great ? It really makes you not tired coz im not even sweating for the past 4 days . As i reach the airport , saw my buddy and her mother . I was not comfortable cause i was not used to meeting new outside people . Came in the house , was glad that i got my own room ! How great is that ? more privacy to talk . and do my own things . Anways , their house here is super small . small than you can ever imagine . But , i dont mind , as long as i got my own house .

So these few days , wen to e peak and avenue of stars . it was interesting . Also , everyday went to school . I love the school cause everyone was super friendly . i really meant everyone . i was like a 'pop star' cause everyone looked at me and wave at me , or even say hi . Some will try to talk to me even though their english are not good at all . Its really great you see . Especially today , i had to introduce myself in front of the whole school , luckily , a loud applause was given to me . Afte that introduction , somehow , everyone knew me and even the unknowns would at least say hi or smile . Thats the greatest thing that makes me feel welcomed . I felt appreciated by them . Oh well , everyday after school , ive been going for shopping. But waiting for the weekends . heeheh!

Im really missing so many people right now , the most that i miss is my dearly boyfriend . Im always wondering how is it there huh ? i hope you're fine baby .

okay , got to go now , missing you . mwwwaahhh !

2010-11-03T21:34:00.004+08:00

Even if we're standing on broken strings ..
Even if we say that we have to let go ..
i can't let go of you .
Coz , the truth is that , i love you .

Hello people .

Glad to say that it's already NOVEMBER now . Can you believe it ? How fast can this be ? And to think about it , im left with 1 month, then im already Sec 4 .. and soon , im gonna be 16 . Hell yeah ! time to parrrtayyyy ! okay forget about that , the most major thing upcoming would be my hectic Olevels ! oh shit ... gonna be so stressful .

Well , well , seems like october had been quite a touch month for me . All the good and bad things came in one month ,the good thing was that i passed my end of year exam . The bad thing was that i almost lost the one i love :( , Not much of elaboration , But just to say that love does knocks you down but you just got to get back up . Its better to think of what you got to change in the future than just to linger around in your past . I just hope things would get better ? Baby , please remember that i really love you even if i say that we got to let go .. Im not saying it with all my heart . Cause i know , i dont wanna waste whatever that we had built for the last upcoming 11 months . i love you so much .

okay , people , in 3 more days i'll be going HongKong AGAIN! hahahah . & guess what , i'll be goingg to some of the same places , AGAIN! wow , how "great" is that ? I just hoped things would be great there especially my host family . most importantly , i've got to buy my wanted stuff there . After i went there with my family last year . I could gaged what i wna buy in my next trip ! woohoooooo !

okay , im done for today .

tata !

2010-10-04T23:39:00.003+08:00

THIS IS THE FUCKING REASON WHY IM MISSING MY FUCKING LONG HAIR SO MUCH !

ARRGGHH !

*cursing the person that cut my hair so much !

THANKS .

2010-09-30T20:28:00.004+08:00

When your alone , i feel your kiss .
Right on my lips , you know i can't resist .
When you're asleep , I wanna be your dream .
I'm just an angel sent to take your sin ..

I'll fight so hard for you & then I'll try ..
To bring the smile and sunshine in your eyes.
Don't let me go , don't lose your faith in me .
& everything will be alright , you'll see .

hola hola !

oh damn , i've been mugging and mugging these few days for the end of your exams !
im really afraid of failing . I want to be promoted and get done with my O's next year . Then hopefully , go to the poly that would be destinated . God willing . Currently studying geog . There's so much to memorise . My god ! i got like D&T and physics to learn. Wow , how great can this be ? Oh well , sec 3 expresssss . But seriously , i got to pass at least 4 or 5 this time . & of course , impove . But i dont know if i could . hehehe .

okay , recently life's been fine . as usual . School just stress me up now . Its so depressing to have the same thing everyday . My god ! now , its all about exams and revisions . We just have to get this over and done with . But , the " best " thing is that , after exams , sec 3E & 4N are having bridging programme ! Like whatt the - . 2 weeks of that fucking shit . We are gonna start on sec 4 . Wth kan ? Everyone's enjoying hols . But we , go school and have that thinggy . Arrrggghhh .
irritating like hell . okay , whatever .
Wish you all the best for the exams !

okay , gtg now .

goodbye hunns .

2010-09-18T01:52:00.002+08:00

*sing~

Happy birthday to you !
Happy birthday to you !
Happy birthday to my baby .
Happy birthday to you !

Oh yeah , today is his birthday ! yaynessss . Gonna celebrate with him later on .
Well , just wna wosh this lovely guy a great birthday & always know that i will alwaes love you !
Dont be naughty anymore and hope you have a great life ahead .
There are still more to come and more to be discovered . But whatever it is , hopefully , we get to grow old together okay bby ?

te amo !

2010-09-06T15:12:00.004+08:00

Damn , i miss that pic . It was on new year eve 09 .

Hey there people !

hmmmmppp .. its been kinda dusty in this blog laahh ehhh ?
oikayy , gonnaaa update & update morre !

oh well , august to september .. been keeping myslef busyy & at last , today is a holiday .
let me tell you , i've kinda impoved on my resluts . But m mum still not satisfied ,fine . whatever . But hey , i've improved . Okayy , so yeah , hari raya is comingggg ! isnt it like freaking fast . Too bad , i cant realli fast that much this year . Oh well , there's next year . So , this year wearing pinkkk ! huhu . happyyyy . Well , wearing grey with babyloveee . Canit wait to celebrate with family and especially my dee baby ! and of course , GET MONEYY!
well , im not sure to save money or to spend it or to get something really expensive . So i guess , i can think bout that later lahhh huh ? Damn , im superb bored todayyy . Mum's not working & she's cleaning the whole freaking house . like what theeeee ! and its only me at home . So obviously im the target to help her clean all this freaking things . Sialll ar , this house superb big and only 2 ppl is like cleaning? mcm chi - toot .

See that picture ? Handsome kan dier ? Oh well , he's my bby !
hehe ..
Hmmmm , baby's birthday coming in a weeeek eh ! dont be naughtyyyy . or i'll bite you .
baby ! remember for ur special present ! * winkkx *
i love you so muchhh okay sayanggggg .

haiyaaaaaaa . now , wna go bathhhhh and then have to help m mum go clean , donno what & soon , i'll have rashes coz f w dust everywhere !
damn gurl .

okayy , sayonaaraaa !

2010-08-14T22:49:00.003+08:00

i opened my eyes , i tried to see but im blinded by tears . I dont know what's god giving me but i really hope that god is giving me the right path . Everyday my life at home , just hurts me . I see no happiness , no pleasure , no love , no.. urgh , nothing at all . It just hurts me so much . But i know , i have to be very very patient now . Although there is nothing in this family eversince , i was small till now that im all grown up and mutured enough to think . At least , im reall grateful to have a boyfriend that could be patient with all these challenges and stick with me through . Because , he is my strengh . Everytime i do something , i'll think if its the best for us . I believe , that someday .. its gonna prove to everyone that , our love is true . Someday .. i hope . We just got to be patient . Its hard .. but what's life being so easy ? right ?

its so hard to be happy these days . I do laugh , i do smile but , i do put up a show to all these . Im just wearing a mask . I want people to think that im happy . I dont want people to ask , hey , are you okay ? Cause , nothing's okay in my life . To tell e truth , i've never enjoyed my like in my childhood or as a teenager . I love to see people being happy cause it motivates me , as i was sure there is still something tht i

Every night , i'll rephrase , " i love rudy haryanto & i promise that we'll be together , no matter what happens " ..

2010-08-13T13:40:00.002+08:00

i can't believe eveything's happening this fast .
and deep inside , my tears , i'll drown .

i swear to all of you , the only guy that i love would be rudy . No matter what we did , and no matter what's happening now , he's the only guy i love . the only one in my heart . I see so many people , seperating us , they're like seperating us like as if nothing's between us . Eveything that is between us , is the strongest thing that happen in my life . How can i forget easily of all these memories . Of where we would always go , of how he would call me his baby , of how he would touch me .. how he would kiss me and hug me ...
eveything just ending to fast ...
my world .. my life .. my love ..
i cant stand living in this world anymore ..
im useless to almost everyone ... i give too much trouble to them ..
everytime i hurt them , i just hurt myself ..
eveytime i want to be happy but i just cant .. evything just pull me through ..
there are more secrets that's in my life .
no one knows anything, i dont wna destroy eveything .

please , god , show me something .. i don't know which step else to take ..
everything's falling down ..
no more trust in between ..
i just got to clear my mind up .

anw , to that tasha , or whatever .. i have more problems to deal with rather than entertaining your childish insults . okayhs ... so people , do whatever that's more important to you ..

2010-07-29T09:09:00.003+08:00

when the whole world come crashing in . ..
you just got to reflect , what's wrong now ?
cause not everything will turn right in the end .

**yawwwwwwwnnnsss**

omg ! im deadly bored in sch right now.

been falling really sick lately and now , just recovered , but not fully .
well , due to my sickness , i've been missing sooo many lessons and its liek i dont even know what's happening right now . i just dont know what to do and what to revise . Wished there's someone grateful enough to help me :( oh well , whatever , so now i can relax and cool my mind cause the hongkong gurl have returned home ! hehehehe . FREEDOOMMMM ! its been 2 weeks since i went out with my dearest baby . I miss him so much . damnn . baby on sat must go watch movie okay ? like how we'd always do .

currently having d&t . but its so boring ! its like always a free period to do whatever we want , yet still get A :D

okay okay , im bored . wna googgglleee of whats happening around the world ! hehehe .

toodlex.

2010-07-23T06:59:00.002+08:00

wasssuuupppp people .

been really dusty here . im sorry , i've been busy , too busy with all these exxchange trips .
Everyday , have to come home around 6+ ? damnn , reached home at 7+ ?
see , its freaking tiring for me . dammmn . just 2 more days , santi !

So this exchange trip had realli made me tired to the extremeeeee punye . Its like i have to rake care of one child , kay maybe it is . & by this , i realised i've not been sharing quality time to both my boyfriend and friends , and even for myself . Damnnn , i really miss everything so much . 2 weeks of no privacy , no freedom of being alone and no time spent with the loved ones .

I really wish to apologise this to everyone who's been missing me ,e specially my boyfriend . Im really grateful that you all can understand and be patient with me . I know , ya'll dont agree bout this and despite the fact that i still accept this , you all still go through all these shitttx with me . To my friends , thanks for all your support , everything's gonna end soon now . I hope to get some time with all of you after this .

Damn , its been two weeks that i really spend qualilty time with boyfyy . Im sorry baby :(
i really got to thank him for going thru with me all these . Especially when we're both in two different places , right baby ? I promise to spend time with you ok sygggg . Just know that i really miss you , going out with you and everything ! *winkwink*
No matter what , i will still love you okay ? i still love you so much .
DOn't let all these make our love fade and be a distraction . lets keep it strong k syg ?
i will try my very best to make you happy ang keep smiling everyday .
I LOVE YOU !

2010-07-13T19:09:00.003+08:00

OH OH OH OH OH OHMYGOSH ~

hello wello dirty fellow ! damn damn , im so so tired right now . Its been days since i rest peacefully or properly lately ! Well , im really busy . Not that im so busy but sometimes i will always be tired to post .

Oh well , recently or maybe say now , there is a hongkong gurl staying over with me . Its an exchange programme actually . Well , she will be staying with me for 2 weeks yo ! & counting , it will be like 12 more days ! Hmm , its not that i cant stand it but it's more difficult than how you may think it is . Its like , how i take care of myself , double the time . I got to take care of her carefully . Furthermore , no privacy at all . and , she will alwaes be by my side . Usually , im alwaes alone , somehow now , she will never fail to be bside me . grrrrrrrrr ! irritating jgk uh . But whatever it will be , the experience that counts . Gyeah , how often can you get a pal from another country ? & oh , dont forget , i'll be going hongkong on nov !

okayokay , im gonna be tired alr . lastly , i miss my rudy haryantooooooo !
i wanna hug him lah cann ? pls !
baby , i miss & love you so much ...
mwahhhhhhhhh !

2010-07-01T21:54:00.002+08:00

hey peeps .

Sorry for not updating lately . Been very very busy with just school stuffs .
Damn , im so tired with school . I dont know if i prefer the new time table or not . Coz it just feels long . But i guess , the recess is better . Well , the 4th day of school alr , every teacher just kept on talking bout O ' level . They just kept us thinking bout it & of course , buck up . Like really really buck up . My term 2 results brought me to nowhere . Like seriously , NOWHERE . I don't wanna end up seing myself at the rubbish dump too . Haha ! 0key . Anyway , I knew my parents were really upset bout my results . But like i say , they would not comment on anything , its just this , signed-sealed-delivered . They never ever say , "try your best" or any motivating words . Blerhs . Whatever , im used to it though . I just know that they are not satisfied with my results . But whatever it is too , they wont say anything . Well , its really time for me to stop slacking . I really meant it . I got to just stop slacking . I slack , alot . Therefore , im lazy . Ok , gonna be serious now !

oh well , im happy that there's still someone to support me . My baby dee ! I was surprised that he actually commented on my results . I mean , never in my life , that a boyfriend would care bout my results . So , im really glad that he does and it just shows that he do care bout me . I knew he was disappointed too . At least he told me to really buck up . & im really gonna do it now . Let changes go slowly , but at last , the change will be seen . Thank you baby for comforting me . I love youuuuuuuuuu ! mwahmwah .

okyeah , got 2 compos to do now . wth ryte ?

goodbye !

2010-06-27T18:37:00.003+08:00

I FUCKING DONT CARE of my life :D .

im dead tired of all this shitx lahh fuck .
im tired of thinking.
im tired of writing ,
im tired of expressing .
Just be whatever it is , just go with the flow.

in like the girl pointing my middle finger high up in the air , coz now , I DONT FUCKING CARE .

okay , sorry for like being mad alone here . Im just fucking pissed off with many things in fact .
oh , whatever .
im not gonna care anymore .

Damn , just finished up my homeworks . Well , of course not all . Coz i still have like wednesday to pass it up . I dont give a damn to E learning okay . Dont expect me to open up that thing & go through it . I dont give a damn , seriously . & guess what ? I still have NOT dye my hair black yet although tmr sch re-open . I dont give a fuck . haishhhhh . For the whole fucking day , i've been staying at home with no fucking person entertaining me . Not even a single ONE . My sister went for camp , my parents are always Out . So , spent the whole fucking day doing nothing and just waiting to go school with the-not-ready position . Damn , im so hungry . Surprisingly , my mum didnt cook anything . She bought for me chicken rice in e morning . & now , im smelling people frying nuggets . Cheebye betol !

aiyayayayayy . im just so pissed out with some things . Okay , maybe this is the payback to me . So fuck care , gy enjoyyyyyyyyyy . Im meant to always be alone right ? haish , whatever .
feel like going out mannnn ! or should i ? damn , feel like going macD right now .

How should i dye my hair alone ?

blerhs . whatever lah santi , ni hidop fuck care .

bye .

2010-06-24T23:53:00.001+08:00

I really feel something's gonna happen .

But i still could not find it out .

when i have these feelings , i really do .

im so curious .

2010-06-24T00:46:00.002+08:00

i cant sleep , i cant sleep , i cant sleep , i cant sleep ,i cant sleep .

baby , it just feels like insomnia . Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr ~

currently , just looking at my past photos . My gawd ! can see that i've changed alot eversince sec1 . ehehehe . even to my friends .

I dont know why i cant sleep .. i've been tying to . But i just keep thinking of how it will be when school reopens ! Im superrb not ready . Been thinking bout my INCOMPLETE homework . my hair colour and the lessons . I guess i forgot like everything . aiyayayayay ~
kancong ahhhh santi !

i miss my baby , i miss my baby , i miss my baby .
:(
gagagaggaa . im so bored .

Sooner or later , there will be this hongkong gurl satying with me fo 2 weeks ! ohhhmmyyyGOD !
cox , im involved in this hongkong exchange programme . So , july they will be coming to Singapore . & on november , i will be going to hongkong instead . I hope it will be a great experience . Get to fly without my family ! but of course i'll miss them , especially my babi ;p

hmmmmm , okay im done crapping ,
wna try to lay down . put myself to sleep .

can i have a sweetdream , pls?

2010-06-21T01:48:00.015+08:00

TE AMO , Baby .

today , had a great date with baby . We watch , ' The A-Team' . It was a super super geat movie ! Equally good as karate kid . Gyeah , should really catch this movie . Highly recommended by me . hehehe , Oh well , movie ends at 9.15 , then we went chillex . (=

As for yesterday , went out with my baby too but in e evening met my dearest Syasyaaaa !
oh god , tell me , when was the last time i met her ? 3 months ago i guess , was really all excited and happy to meet her . We shared lotsa stories . een (her bf) was being funny that day . Always persuading my baby to do the same things with him . Grrrrrrrrrrr . Oh well , een , thankss eh . Anyways , next thing , shopping together ehh ? huhu ^_^ . back to the story , we met at arab st & sheeeshaaa - ed . It was funn , i was pretty happy on that day (=
thanks to you both and baby .

2010-06-16T14:35:00.003+08:00

what a great day , to sleepsleepsleep . hehehehe (:

had a tremendous day yest !
BIG thanks to baby for letting me out yest .

me,qeen,lina&khabir decided to go changi and just spent our time there . Surprisingly syiqin's whole fmaily was there . ahahah . so to qeen , it was liek a family and besties kinda dayyy . hehehe . Oh well , met up with qeen first at inter . Then headed to changi . Aft that , i just got to eat the nasi ayam penyet there . so gyeahhh ! it was delicious . yummmy yumyum . Then , we decided to wait for leena and khabir . My gawwdd ! they took so long . Me & qeen waited likee what at e pathway . ahahah . Then they reached , and we settled at changi beach .

Qeen , leena and khabir went to swim . but i didn't . So i just sat there and listened to my all time favourite songs . Hehehe . makanmakan , chamwhore . At night , they played bluff and murderer . It was really funny cause of many things that im lazy to type in here . okayokayokay . once i got e photos from leena and qeen , will upload it aye ? but most will be in facebook la hor . Here so freaking slow .

I MISS MY BOYFRIED !
i miss you so much baby ,
do you know ?

2010-06-14T16:08:00.004+08:00

Love is about trusting each other's feelings and taking chances ,
losing and finding happiness ,
appreciating the memories ..
and learning from the past .

its hard to say it all . But i just wana know , what prove does he have to say that .
He's the only guy that i love . He means really special to me as my heart could easily open a door for him . I easily fell in love for him . As i knew it would be a tough relationship to fight through as many have objections between us . But still , i wont hear what people say about us , I dont care whatever people think about us . I believe in myself , i believe in him and most importantly , i believe that i only want him from this day . I trusted him and i still do . But if only i could have that in return . Just a lil bit of trust would make it easier . I don't know how many millions of times i must say that i only love him . I feel like climbing to the top of the mountain , and shout my lungs out , that i love him from this entire world . god , if he just realise ..

upset

2010-06-12T11:34:00.004+08:00

yesterday , i guess , it was the most shocking day of my life . I STILL could not believe that something eally did happen despite of all the promises . Oh , i don't expect , i mean promises are meant to be broken . true ? It was the first time in my life that i felt upset , really really upset ove someone fo a major thing . its permanent . After i received those news , my head wanted to explode . I was mad , angry , disapointed and hurt . I screamed at almost everyone there . Punched alot of things . I showed how i felt . I can't keep it . How can i keep cool if things happened in a blink of an eye ? god , i acted that i was FINE . But in my heart , i just feel like stabbing myself . I know , many of you had talked to me bout the issue , but i wasnt still getting ove it cause its so unexpected , its too fast fo me to accept all these . I just need time for what just happened . As i go home , i thought i could just forget eveything , but no , it was playing all ove in my mind . I thought i could just sleep and finish Yesterday but i couldnt , it was too real fo me . I wish it was all a dream . But i knew its reality .

& as i woke up today , i thought eveything was gone . But instead , it was the first thing i remembered . I've never felt this way before . Eveytime , i woke up with at least a smile . Oh , what e new day ! but somehow today , I woke up , feeling nothing . I dont know to be happy or sad or angry . Im confuse . I just dont know what else to do . There's nothing else to be said , to be told , or to explain . What's done is done . I just have to accept it , but its hard . Cause i expected you to change for me or at least fo youself . I remembered when you say , " i got to end my this life now . I got to change to a new, better life . " I thought you meant it ? i believed in you so much . im just upset . I dunnoe till when will i not be upset . But for this moment , someone o anyone just make me happy please .

im fucking upset .

2010-06-11T16:17:00.002+08:00

okay , going out later .

BYE

2010-06-10T12:03:00.003+08:00

Heyloh all !

blerrrrhhhs ! how dusty can my blog be eh eh ? hahaha !
okay , since the beggining of june till now , i've been doing NOTHING ! absolutely NOTHING !
aahaaa . been sleeping and sleeping like a pig . Never been going out too :(
Well , its the weather that makes me so lazy and sleepy to bring myself out . Huhu ^_^ .

Okay , so life's boring but but lots of exciting things happening !

1. I might be working (:
2. 12th , a date with boifyy .
3. 17th , UNIVERSAL STUDIOS ! , here i commmeeeee !
4. 20th june , a day to be LOVEDD :D .
5. 22 june , cousin birthdayyy .

Shopping ? soon ? i guess . ohmyyy , GREAT SINGAPORE SALE !

gyeahhh , got a list there .
haaaahs !

kkay , got to go now . will post another time ehhy !

XOXO .

2010-05-31T17:23:00.002+08:00

LIfe ...

sometimes , things just get too tough for me . I realli feel like giving up . Im losing grip . What's happening? I just wish there's something to cure this heart . My problems are all not settled , although it looks so fine but i can feel behind it, its not al all , there are still those big gaps between everything . Yet , things add up in double . More and more just come in my way . I just dont know how patient i am all this far . Life's always has its ups and downs , i know . But it so hard for me to live it or go through all this shit im facing . Like i say , sometimes its just things that affect me that will change me . Naturally i change . When there's no one out there , and i dont have any options all i sit is cry . I guess i'vee been giving out my tears alot dis year , or maybe say for these 6 months . I just dont understand myself or even understand the people around me . I want to show them how much i care and love them but there's so many things thats stopping me from doing so . I can't go on life like this . I swear at time i just feel like stopping my life or say commit suicide . Cause i guess , i wont disturb these people in my life animore if i leave this world . I will just go to the other world although i die without feeling happy . In my life , the bad things just keep on repeating . So , why not i end everything ??

Whenever i am so depressed im veryvery pessimistic . So stop saying that i have to live my life if i dont feel like living it anymore . After all , the world's gonna end .
im just sick , sick and tired of this life .

: it just shows how bad i am to have hurt you like this . Like i say , why linger around with me if there's someone better and can make you happier . I can sacrifice of being hurt just to see you happy . It happened too many times to me . Im sure i'll be ok with it . It will just take me a long time to settle down . The only person that i care and i love is you . I realised that i've been not treating you in a good way . Like , not being there when you need me . I wish , i just wish i can be better to you . I just dont know how to change . Im trying but im always failing . I understand if you cant be patient with this attitude . I myself dont understand my own life . I dont know whats the better way or to think of what should i do . Like , im always following the flow . Im sorry if im not a great one for you but im really trying . I know i cant be the way you expect me to be . Even i dont expect anyhting for myself . I have no ways of living but all i know is that i really really love you till that i confessed to my mom that im going to have a serious relationship with you . But i just cant handle my life . I hurt you , but it hurts myself too .

i cannot wait ,
for some faithful day ,
its too far away .

2010-05-29T02:52:00.002+08:00

hola hola people .

Its like 3am in the morning , yet it doesnt matter to me at all . After all , its alr the June hols :D
hell yeah . Sleep whenever i want to lah huh ?

Okayh , today had a great day although things didnt go of how i expected or planned it to be . But still , there's always a plan B . Okay , suppose to watch movie right ? But mua babyboi woke up late !!!! grrrrrrrrr. By the time i reach marina , i could not get my tix . Damn it . So , waited for him to reach . & since i havent eat , we decided to go makan . But at the same time to chillex too . So , i decided to go to Nabins at arab street . It has the arabic atmosphere . We ate & sheeshaa .
Thanks for the treat baby . (= & then , go lepakkkkkk . & reached home at 11.30 .

Oh well , tmr's plan or say , later . 12-6 have to work with mua sis at the cruise centre . Ohmmmyyy . Helping her uh . But at least got great $$$ , After that meet bby again to watch a movie . We better do ! been wanting to watch the Prince of Persia:The sands of time . After i watch it then i'll rate it yeahh !

Okay , got to go nowwwwwww.

holaaa.

2010-05-28T12:20:00.002+08:00

Gyeah , sometimes real deep problems could not be solved . I just have to be patient it . Let it fade away . & maybe , it will all start all over again . tskkk . i just had enough of this . This problem is not as how you all may think . Its been happening for years . Just that , the people are part of you , even if u want to change them , you could not succeed . Coz , they are part of you . Like someone said to me , " you can't change the environment , but you can change yourself " . I geuss , i really listen up to it.

Previously , i've been changing & changing but to the worst limit . I think MANY had seen my changes . I know , i myself too . i did because of some people and how it has affected me . & so , it was my turn to show . I swear , i realised , everything changed . & until this moment , it's the critical part . Everyone just shooot me . & now , i guess i should change back to my old self , that old me who ya'll want to see . About them , i'll just ignore . I mean no matter how much it hurts me , I still need to live my life . although , how much it affects me , i just hope someday they will thought of me and would change or even understand my situation or life . I know , that will take decades , perhaps .

This week had been a really really tough week for me . Its the week where there are breakdowns and more . Especially , confessions . Everyone confessed to me . Its like one after another . Firstly was them , then my teachers , friends , bestfriends and even others . I was really disappointed with my ownself . My gawwdd , i cant believe that i could also affect others . Especially my maths teacher , at last he apologised for not teaching me right for 3 years , & it was my fault too that i was not intersted in a single thing bout his lesson . many people saw my changes and talked to me . hence , its adding bricks to my wall .

I guess now , i've cooled down & realised . they too . I hope . Really wanna apologise to my friends and family or whoever who saw that i really changed . The real me will be abck , hopefully soon . && also i wanna thank everyone who had hear my problem especially syiqin! thanks for always being there for me . You were the first person i confessed to . I couldnt think of anyone else that i could trust . thanks for always being there for me when i needed you (:
I guess , i'll stop these foolish act of mine now . Moreover , im turning 16 next year . WOOHOO!

happy that i've got my IC alr . haha . okay , whatever . I was just satisfied with my photo . It looks nice (=

Well , going to go out with my boify later on . Gonna cut my hair tooo . && watch a movie .

i love you all !

2010-05-23T00:49:00.003+08:00

I don't need a parachute ,
baby , if i've got you .
baby , if i've got you .
I don't need a parachute ,
You're gonna catch me ..
You're gonna catch me if i fall down .

ahhhh . how tired can i be ? huhu .

Well , had a great day spending my time with dearest boifyy . Well , as planed weeks ago , that today we would be going to sentosa ! hehe . & gyeah , only the two of us . How Sweet ! Well , he picked me up at 1 .. we went to vivo , took the lrt && then , chill at Pahlawan beach . Oh god , howwww long have i not stepped on the sand . heehs . It was relaxing after all . With the great view && somehow , there wasn't alot of people . So , it was , peaceful . Furthermore , it wasnt raining or blazing hot just now . It was cloudy the whole day . So , i guess it was really a suitable day to go swimming ! Gyeahh , it was fun , im happy (= Then , settled purselves and we headed to KFC . Had early dinner . Proceed to suntec to meet some freaking people . Then to mount faber to chill off . & reached home at 12 (=

Oh damn , 2moro got undangan , penatpenatpenat lahhhh!

kkay, i wna post out for awhile .

Pics will be uploaded soon !

&& bby , thanks for the great day we spent , i love youu ! :D

XOXO

2010-05-20T19:33:00.003+08:00

Too much of anything can make you sick ,
even the good can be a curse .
its all far from over .

today , 21st may .

Ohmygood , i just dont know what else to post . But , i really feel like posting .

Well , Life's been dreadful , lately . Know what ? I still have no ideas of what to do on June Hols . Im sure what my parents would say is : Go revise your work . & i'll say , Ohhh , come on , have a break , have a kit kat ! Instead , i think i want to search fo a job . Somehow , i donno how & where. I dont really wish to work at Pizza hut back , but i dont know . I can if i want . But kinda lazyyyy .and and , see the date its like alr 21st of may . How fast can dis be ? && june's comning . damnnn .

Well , yesterday went to sch and nothing muchh happened . I came in around 8.30 . Lol . This is how i will be after exams , coming late and stuffs . So aft sch , head to bubble tea and ate there for a while . Aft that , proceed home quickly . Then , around 5 , wati came over to upload some photos that was taken at Bugis . Around 8pm at night , went out for dinner with e family . We went to johor like late at night . Gyeahh , Went Bannafe to eat . My good ! it was the first time i went there and i swear it was nice . With the arabic songs and the atmosphere of arab street . it was great :D && me and sista sheeesshhaaa all the way . haha . I guess , i sheeshaa ALOT ot too much till that at nite i kept on vommitting of what i ate and also i was walking like a drunk person . LOL . my head was superb heavy ! the sheeshaa there was really strong i guess . && it was kinda diff compared to spore's . Overall , i did had a great night . Came home almost to 1am .

And today , i woke up at 8 ! damnnn . i was like , fuck ! but still , i could not wake up . At 9 woke up again , thought of going to sch . But if i go also , i will reach there around 10.30 . What for right ? hahs ! So decided to just stay home . Staying at home is also like fuck . Fucking boring .

arggghhh . i didnt woke up feeling happy , instead , disappointed .

anw , i dont wish to point out to anyone . But some people should really change their attitude . Seriously . I mean , we were friends . So , how can u treat your own friend like this ? Stop blaming people and think of what you had done that also got you involved . right ? so think bout it ehyy , lady .

To qeen ; sabaaarrr ye syg ! all this will really have its end . hopefully , soon .

alright ! im done posting now !

XOXO .

p.s ; why is it so hard for you to believe me bby ..

2010-05-13T21:04:00.002+08:00

Hey blogger .

Ohhh my ! its been so long that i post something huh ?

Oh well , like is say , its either im lazy or just supppeeerb busy to blog . hehehe , peace !

Okayh , exams are still hanging around. Overall , malay was average . English was as difficult to the extreme ! Physics was also average too , but most of the topics that i leanrt did not come out but it was still managable . Just now was geography .Oh myyy ! luckily i studied fo geog .. coz i was able to do e paper . See , i know i can do it .. its just the matter that i want or not . BUT , for SURE , im gonna fail my maths and chemistry tmr. Its not that i dont want to pass but i just dont know a single thing ! its like alien subjects to me ! heheeheh . damn it . I dont even think i can pass my mid year . Its really tough ya know . In sec 3 , express . My gawddd !
well , wish all of you all the best !

I just cant wait for mondayyy ! Exams will be over . after that HOORRRAAAYYY ! all our wildness will show . hahaah ! tues & weds not schooling . Then come that special day , Thurday . *winkwink* ... hehehe :D . By then , i'll be as free as a bird . wooohooo . kkay , santi , lets wait for monday . Then JUNE HOLS !

i still have not plan of what to do/be done for June hols . While qeen has like a page full of shopping list ! i still have none . heheheh . Whisper to qeen ; "saving...saving..." .. taknak "kosong" . hehehehehe ! my gawd this joke is playing over and over again on my mind . Damn you qeeen! hahahaha .

okay , like wise , about life .. eveything's going alright . Nothing muchh happening lately . Just goin with the flow .. finish my exams first . Then , i'll think bout what to do with this life of mine . Im sure i can do lotsa stuffs on june hols right ... Boify ? *winkwink* .
Bout my relationship .. Its still going on fine .. Bbyboy , remember that i'll still be with you though thick & thin oke ? I love you hunney !

Oke , i guess im done .

goodnyte to all !

2010-04-29T22:48:00.003+08:00

i could really use a wish right now , like shooting stars .

hola hola !

nothing to do right nowww . im borrreeedddd !
anw , not been attending school for exactly 2 dayss ! Had high fever anf sore throat . It all came in a sudden && the doctor gave me mc . Heheh . yeahh , its really a bore staying at home ehyy . You can't really expect much cause all i did was like hibenating like a polar bear in cold weather . hehe . So today , decided to meet up with fiends aft they were done with school .

Oh well , wanted to slack around but then wati decided to go to her grandmum house .
I really did enjoy myself there . coz her grandmum was simply funny! huahua . For an age like that , you dont expect words like , " puki , bodek , babi , sial " to be said by her grandmum . hahaha . supperr funny . && the funniest one was that when wati disturbed her alot .. she was like " u understand , u bloody stupid fool " hahahahaah ! I laughed so hard that now my cheeks are so cram. It was great to see someone funny like her . Well , too bad i don't know how my grandmother is/was like . :D

goodbye hunnns !

a great sat !

2010-04-25T04:30:00.007+08:00

Even if your world's gonna change , dont let it go out of your hand .

omg , its already near to 5 am & im still not alseep soudly yet . Well , i dont know , i've not feeling sleepy yet o wish to sleep . I just wnna wake up late tmr . I don't know what will tommorrow bring me but i just simply don't wnna plan anything yet . You know , when you have a feeling that there will be something tmr .. but actually , you have not even plan anything .

but whatever it is , i really enjoyed myself today !!
hahas . Well , today went out around 3.30 , met boyfiee at plaza singapura . He reached there first to buy movie tickets . The movie title ; Bounty hunter . So before the movie, both of us went to eat KFC . Then headed to 313 as i wanted to shop at New look (; I was really glad that there's a big sale right there . Yeahhh , what else ? i shop like a freakkk siow ! I mean , after so long that i dont really shop . At last my chance has come . So , i bought 3 dresses and a bag , while bby bought a nice jacket . His jacket costs $30 around there , which original price was $60+ . It was really worth it okayhh . In total , we actually spent $80 over in that shop . But i got this $10 voucher so it was only $70+ . (=

Around 7+ , watched bounty hunter . It was a comedy + action movie . Highly recommended for those of you who loves to laugh . Its really a great show tho . && last part was touching . The movie ended and 9.05 .. then we sit around east coast . Go off aound 11.40pm .. i reached home around 12 (=

I did have a great day thanks to my dearesst ! I love youu .

now , pictures .

2010-04-19T18:05:00.003+08:00

And at last ....

All the pictures have been burnt ,

All the past ,

Is just a lesson that we've learned .

Somewhere WE went wrong ,

WE were once so strong ...

Now i'm left .. to forget ..

about US .

See the words up there ? They are just the best lyrics to describe a fake friendship .

Oh well , now , i really know who are my true bestfriends / friends .

A true friend would change things & settle , even if we're at the worst times & would still call it a friendship .

Even a friend who doesnt talks to me every single day , but just saying hello , still makes a friendship with me . Even my true enemies , still shows a smile to me . Even my long lost friend , still have the guts to say hello to me . Even if im in my deepest place , a friend still shines me a hand . Even if the world's gonna end , my bestfriends are still with me .

; But why not you ?

to you ;

thanks for ALL that you done to me or for me . I really do appreciate it & this is not in a sarcastic manner okayh . I mean , thanks , really , for everything .

After all the , "you are my bestfriend " statements and sacrifices , now i've really seen your true colours . I really thought that i could not be without you but surprisingly i could . I've been thinking , what makes you my true friend if you dont even bother to settle things down or at least explain to me of what's going on . instead , you left me just like snapping your fingers and talkk all the crap about me . What were the " i love you babe ! " , " sansan , i miss you " for ? If eneded up , you'll dumped liek a piece of shit . You're just so ' nice ' , gurl . Too nice . ohhh , why not , now you and your life just go on . okeyh ? if you see me in the streets just act like you're a stranger to me . In fact , we are strangers now .

stupid people . Doing stupid things . Acting like fools .

I know who are my real friends are . & my one and only bestfriend .

Syiqin , been 3 years that we're great bestfriends .

I mean , we're still strong . Although at times we are not , we'll try to forget & forgive and work things out . Ryte Qeen d queen ?

& also to my other besties in school and NANA !

thanks for sticking with me all this while .

Lastly , my beloved guyy ; Dee baby .

thanks for wht you said ,

forget about her , if she is really my true friend she wouldn't do me like this .

I LOVE YOU !

kkay , done expressing this tupid feelings .

its just like clouds casting over the moon .

XOXOXOXO.

2010-04-15T22:26:00.002+08:00

Sometimes , when you look yourslef in the mirror , there will be something different about yourself . Yet , you may not know why . Why is something feeling different ?

oh god , its been tight these few weeks . I mean , my schedules were so tight . In fact too tight .
School , school ... Its getting tougher . Obviously , Mid year exams are really so close , so close that you will go crazy when its already the last minute to study ! just 2 weeks more people . & i have not even start studying muchh . More to physics , but not others . I simply flung in maths . I don't know how deep is the lonkang .. but if there's any deeper , my maths is in the longkang ! huahauahua . kayh , not funny at all . Chemistry , lets just say in simple words , "i dont know anything ? " . hahs . okayhh .. others can manage quite well but i just have to polishhhh .

Okay , skip about studies . I've been coming back home late these days due to rehearsels and just more rehearsels . I've been dancing & dancing .. and it just makes me feel as if im dying sooner or later coz its just like what people say , " dance like there's no tommorrow " . LOL ! But in fact , after dancing .. that tommorrow i have a test . How Great is that ? Not great at all alright . Been having strains on my neck . i don for it waitt know whyy .. i just cant wait for it to go awayy .. & just now , felt headache , vommitted like twice . & all shitx that camne out was the food that i ate for the past two days . My gawwdd ! it just meant that it was not digesting at all . LOL .

Hmmm , love life . Lately , things have been going on quite well in both of us . Or say , really well . Just that when we fight , it just seems like my world turn upside down . But hey , i could rotate it back , just have to be really patient and thiiiiinnnkkkk really good of teh decisions that we make . Im just happy , or if there are greater terms of saying happy , that would be it . Hope that things will go alright everytime . But that chance is really low , if you know what i mean . ehheeh . Okayh , i just love you .. No , i really love you .. I love you so much baybehhh !

okayh , i guess im really done for today . im sick and tired and sick and fcuking tired. Just wanna rest now . tmr , speech day , have to perform . Tsk . How tiring can this be ? luckily this is all gonna end ....

XOXO .
take carrrre .

2010-04-03T11:49:00.008+08:00

heyheyh ! currently wanna post about yesterday , good friday .

so... went marina square with bby to watch movie . we watched ju-on . (=

i swear that ju- on is suchhaa confusing storey . Well, i dont think it is even a complete story..
There was both scary and funny part . Well , the funny part is not because of funny scenes but PATHETIC scenes . Overall , it was a pathetic story uhh. NOT recommended to all . I guess , its better to watch clash of the titans (=

Yeahh , so after movie , smoke smoke smoke . Then , decided to slack at East Coast .
Then go home around 11.45pm . (=

here are some photos .

2010-04-02T12:35:00.002+08:00

helllo welllooo .

HAPPY GOOD FRIDAY people , especially to the christians . lol .

kkayh , so what are you all up to todayy ? Well , for me , i guess i'll be spending time wif ma dearest boifeee . Lol . But he still never text me yettt ~ urggghh . Must wait and wait . Hopefully he'll text me soon lah kayh ? hmmm , this is week , was a tough week for me . Like seriously , it was a tough one . hahs . At last , it all ended . Nowww , ENJOY THE WEEKEND :D

Speech day rehearsels are very very irritating . They kept on repeating and repeating . But the actual event is on like , 16th April ? Lol , i guess they want it to be relly really perfect lah hahhhh .
Then , like released us around 6+ , 7 ? gggrrrrr . Irritating yoo !

hahs , kayh lahh , wanna do some other stuffs right now ehyy .

tata (=

This, this is my life , im looking for you searching love in your eyes .
This , this is my life , im chasing a dream that fade away in the night .

2010-03-29T20:51:00.003+08:00

MY LEGS ARE FUCKING ACHING
IM FUCKING TIRED .
& IM FUCKING MISSING MY BABYBOY !

Ohhhhhhhh myyyyy gawd . How tiring is it today ? Damn , dance is really giving my whole leg more cramp . & whole body superbb tired . Yeahh , had the speech day rehearsel just now . Ended around 5+ to 6? and its getting worse on wednesdayy . damn damn . Oh , sacrifice . whatetever .
Anyway , had oral after school . Came to the holding room got scolding from this eng teacher , coz me and qeen came late . Pity afiq who got chase out . huahua ! padan muka . LOL !
Oral .... it was superb fine . But i did not score much for picture discussion , i think that i even got the picture ina wrong mindset ! hehes. But my discussion part was average . i think ? all i knew was that i talk tak talk talk talk ! & instead , the teacher was like so interested in hering my crapp . Lol! it was very obvious coz she was asking no questions from the paper but it was her very own questions . ape lagy ? layankan uh ! hhahah .

Okay , tmr no school . But have to come back to return the stupid malay work book n file . Damn that teacher . Chasing us like as if we own her family something . It was just WORK . papers , books files . Not a soul . damn it . irrrriiiiitatinngggg . Canteen , saw her face , hall , saw her face .
tssskk .

kayh , wanna rest for now .
damn tired .

toodlex . (= mwahhh !

2010-03-28T13:34:00.014+08:00

heyh heyh !

how was your earth hour yest ? mine was average (=

Well , went out with dearest , went to watch movie , 'when in Rome' .
It was a gret hilarious movie . hahs . Should watch it (= At night , met up with qeen , wati and khabir and celebrate our earth hour together . Soooo many people were at the marina barrage . Flying kites . hahs ! saw beautiful gigantic kites there . and also the scenery of singapore when its earth hour . But seriously , singapore was not supporting that much . (=
enjoy the photos aye !

2010-03-25T14:35:00.004+08:00

eveytime im ready to leave ,
i seem to be pulling in the wrong direction ,
diving in with no protection .
& you just can't keep stirring me wrong .

the smile on my face ,
just wouldn't show my heart and it's pace ,
was it beating slow or just like a race ?
Sometimes , i thought things would get better ..
But i realised , it was just getting tougher .

Whatever that flows out are just my tears ,
tears that no one would care or would hear .
usually , the things that i love ,
are the things that i have to fear
Fear that i would be losing them
Just like how it was , in the game .

yes , this is my life .
But what's the point of living ...
If we're not even loving ?
If someone could just hear me
& understand me with good deed .
That's just all that i need .

I could write pages of how i feel ,
but as if someone cared and someone will .
Tears , and more tears running through my cheeks.
Its just getting myself weak and weak .

I would rather found myslef in the jungle ,
Than everyday ... i have to struggle .

Fuck this life , this fucking life .

2010-03-19T13:45:00.002+08:00

MARCH HOLIDAYS ARE FUCKING BORING !

hellow wello people ! .

hahaa . saw that note ? yeahh , i really mean it . March holidays are sucha bore, i swear .

Well , lately , been not doing anything . I spent most of my days staying at home . For real . On monday , celebrated qeen's bday ! it was a blast and also a success , Luckily , my & lina's plan did not like go to a waste lahh . hahaha ! it was superr hard coz we went seperate ways . and had to contact and contact to make sure everything went smooth . Hahs , my plan was , me , wati and khabir paitao qeen by saying tht we're not comning the karaoke . hahaha ! but aft they got in the karaoke place, 3 of us will bring a cakee ! hahaha . it was super memorable . && that karaoke place , turned to be like a club! . hahhaaha . we on the stereos so loud & we were dancing like hell . It was fun , i swear . hahaha .

on tuesday ? i stayed at home the whole dayyy . Wednesday too . Thursday too . But on thurday nite went to one fullerton , the starbucks to finish up my homework . but not everything was done . tooo many mannn ! kayh , im gonna copy for sure .

later evening going to pit ! yayyyyeee !

kayh then , till here .

Goodiebye .

2010-03-11T13:45:00.010+08:00

heyyaaa ,

sorry for not updating for sucha long time . Like i've said , im eithe too busy , tired or simply lazy . Yeahhh , thats it .

Recently , just had my sec3 camp , of course , it was fuckking fun but at the same time , tired . For all 3 days i was burnt under the hothothot sun . Im already dark & now , darker. LOL ! okayyy . whatever . my class 301 , won the DIY cooking competiton and also the class cheer ! thanks to syiqin and me ! hehehe . ohoh , and our buddderrrr , zuhairi and afiq *hand signal* . hehehe . . DOnt wanna elaborate more bout camp .
the funniest sentence of all ; " HAVE YOUE EVER WATEEERR ! " .
lol , only some of us know . right ?

Okayyh , back to yesterday .
We had our SPORTS DAY ! at bedok stadium .
Supposedly , we have to reach by 7.20 , and i woke up at 6.45 . hahahaah . so , i reached there at 8.30 . yeahhh , then we cheer cheer and cheer . At least andes showed a little bit of support . Only a little bit . heheheeh . Then , last minute decisions , i had to run for 4x100 relay . Dammnn it ! i was fucking nervous . Eventually , we got 3rd place. yayyyyy ! 1 medal achieved . okayhh , then 4x400 , i had to run also , this time , my team lost . && surprisingly , i fainted at the end point . lol ! eveyone was shocked there . I dont know how and why i fainted . but whatever it was , i tried my best :D & im happy bout it .

todayy , my whole body was aching and i swear i could not move any part just now morning . && luckily , mummy undestood . So , didnt attend school again . & fuck , 2moro is my meet the parents day . Its gonna be my wost nightmare i swear , i failed alot and and , i never hand in sooo many homework . LOL ! ohoh , gonna be dead . real soon .

nowww , let me talk bout my inside feeling laaa kayh ?

currently , im missing many people , even the closest ones .

Obviously , im missing my boyfriend here . He's been MIA for 3 days , we know why . hahaahah . Just cant wait fo him to come back today . We would always talk on the phone from night to moning . & get sleeepy . yeahh . Boy , i justt want you with me now ! Okayyy , i'll just wait for him. Like what words are said , no matter how far we are, you're still close, in my heart .

This feaking gurlfriend of mine ; Nanakido .

I missssssss he fuckking much lah ! That pic was taken on 5th december . We walk2 around city , yeahh , just the both of us . & i could still remember , we somehow met a few down syndrome people . hahahaha ! [ you know , i know ] . && that day , i also treat her pizza hhut . so , wen is mine ? hahaha . Bebbb , i really misss you . When can we go out like those days ? hmm , well , next week is my march holidaes , so i might consider myself to go out wif u one of those days aite ! loveee you so so much .

Now , this is Jaja , my babyghurl .
Wanna noe why i miss her too ? Coz , when i had problems , she was there to comfort me . I remembered when we sat at east coast , and she was crying bout all he problems . But , some things went wong in he life . & now we've not been meeting for weeks . Finally , we make a date to meet , tommorrow . yeahhhh! i just have sooo many things to tell her , ya know . just cant wait to meet her 2moro . && also , i wanna go out wif her someday , okayyy dear?

Lastly , and the most pecious of all .

I miss my bestfriend, sista , or whatever you call it .

Well , although , i see her like eveyday at school , but still there are many things that im missing of her. Thats bcoz , many things ae changing . Like , since sec 1 , we were still close though thick or thin . & soemtimes we would even share our problems . I miss the times when we laugh at funny poeple , the times when we would hangout , the times when we would face troubles , & mostly , the times when we were so close together . Hopefully our friendship would still be very strong again . I dont know if she feels the same way , but this is just how i feel . whatever it is , she will still be my best bestie & sista ! :D

2010-02-25T16:36:00.002+08:00

heyyy peeeps .

currently just sitting && rotting at home . hahs . i've been on mc for 2 days . Well , that doctor said i had food poisoning . Which , i , can only remember eating the ice cream from MacD yesterday . Does that even give me food poisoning ? lol ! Ohmygod , did MacD just poisoned me with its ice cream ? okayh , whatever . Guessss what ? tmr , is already friday . How great is that ? heeehs . Then next week mon and tues , i have not much thgs to do in sch . But im sure . many testes for me to take . && can i just say ... sec3 camp is next week ? like wtf ! seriously next week ? urrgghh . im so gonna hate it *but i dont really mean my words* .

How bored can it be at home huh ? watch tv play lappy , listen to music is all i could do . anwyway , while watching mtv just now . One cool music video just popped out . & it shows lotsa famous artists like akon , pink , nicole schezinger , tpain , lil wayne , jamie fox , usher , justin biber & MORE ! singing we are the world which was originated from MJ . Butbut , they changed it in term for haiti . && there was also rapping . Its really a touching video . i strongly recommend you to watch it !

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Glny4jSciVI

kkayh . gtg now !

taaaataaaaaaaaaaaa !

2010-02-17T19:16:00.016+08:00

Hello hello people .

damn damn , its getting dusty over here yeahh ? soo let me just clear upp and say whateve thats happenin g to me lately .

Hmmm , on 13th feb , went out wif khabir and wati .
myyy gawd ! i felt like i was walking 1 whole spore river siaaaa . hahah . firstly went to esplanade , then singapore river . there , we ate mac . Then we walk around singapore river to boat quay , from boat quay , move around to somewhere and found ourselves at fort canning . then , boiffy called to meet him . so i took bus near raffles , go orchard met him and go home together .
Really had fun wif both of em . heeehs . (= thank you both .

Oh well , lately also , celebrated valentines day and also , My BIRTHDAY !! heeeehs .
Wanna sayy big big thanks to ;
Nana , Jaja , Boiffyy , Syiqin , Syafika , humairah , Khabir , Wati , lina , afiq , faiz , hilmi , syasya , kak yati , kak nadrah , wak suria , abang , bibik , erna , erni , erlisa , mum , dad , sis and whoever that i miss out !
thank you all for the sweet wishes or presents . You all made me happy (=
& also to the schoolmates who just sings me a borthday song along the corridor -_-''' . heeehs .

Well , this week was such a blast .
I had such a great time spending time with my beloved boiffyy on valentines day . ohoh ! we wore the same shirtt . He made me really ahppy on that day . Firstly , thank you so much dear , for everything and for what you've spent just for me . Don't always do that okayyy . Please and thank you (= .
Early in the morning , went to Km2 as i had kude kepang . lohan around 4 , boiffy picked me up and we went to orchard , walkwalkwalk , then went to marina square . He treated me swensens . He also gave me a cuteee flower wif a small stuff toy . It was greatt . Thanks for that alright dearr . & then we proceed to henderson waves . and just sit around , go home around 12 .

Pictures !

16th february !

The day i've been waiting ! the day that im 15 ! ehehehe .

Well , sadsad , starting of the day , went to visit a part of my family house . Well , they're chinese . So somehow , we celebrate chinese new year too . hahaah . && i receive $$$ . heheheh . happy happy . It was kinda fun , my cousin played mahjong . hahaha . cool uh .
Then , me and big familly went to orchard . && me and erni , picked jaja at orchard mrt as she joined my celebration too . Aft tht , we proceed to Plaza Singapura and ate at swensens again -__-''' . But , still nice , heeeeeh . Thanks mummy ! && i got my ice cream cake agaiin . yummmyy . Overall , i really enjoyed my day .

will post next time ,

taaaaataaaa .

2010-02-08T22:51:00.002+08:00

" no matter , the worst , i got you "

hello humans .

as said over and over again , i am not active wif my lappy anymore . I don't even think of typing today . hahs . But for a second thought , let me just share of what's going on wif me lately laa ehy ? Hmm , life ... life ... Life has its ups and downs lately . But recently , i had to go through lotsa obstacles . includes my family , relationship , and school . It all just came into me at one go . But im happy to get to go over these stuffs .

Lately , i've been a very bad gurl in school . I dont know why , its like im changing , to the worse instead . I just don't know whatss up with me . & i dont really care bout that . Coz im still myself . Except that i've become much more chaotic in school . hahaha . okay whatever ! -_-

Hmm , family ? yeahh , coz of school , family will be affected . But i don't wanna elaborate bout this uhh .

Relationship ! yeahh , its a hard thing to handle . Especially when he is the guy i love . Lately there were so many things that's making us fight . After one , one will come . & the more it comes , the more harder it is for him to believe . I know , its hard , & i know , how he feels . But i'll try my best to fight for all these . I swear i hate it when we fight . Its just so hard . But no matter what , i've said , i wont stop loving you . Im sorry for causing all the fights and making you not believing in me . I hope we'll go through all these better ok baby ? I love my rudy haryanto only !

today nothing much to say bout school . Yest , sunday went out wif my family to johor . I somehow trimmed my hair . it looks like something, but i dont wanna say . But yet still nice ! will upload the pic another time ehy . On saturday , went out wif babyboy . We went to bugis and accompanied him went shopping . Around 5+ , jaja met up at bugis , then 3 of us proceed to Taman Warisan as i had to perform some javanese dance . The event was called Kandasmara . The performers were all from Jogja . Its really great dancing with them . But i wasn't used to the dance . Im sure the others too . After that around 9+ , followed bby go Orchard met his friends for a while . Then lepak2 . & reached home around 12.30 .

okayhh , wanna talktalktalk wif my baby now .

tataaaaaa !

2010-02-02T20:41:00.003+08:00

its always peaceful in & out ,
i know there's something i got to do ,
but i can't figure it out yet .
i don't know where i can go ,
i don't know who to believe ,
i don't know who i can love ,
i don't know who even loves me .

had i did an wrong or right lately ?
what's got in me ?

im so confuse , too confuse .
where do my emotions go ?
i guess , i got to really think now .

Myyyy , how dusty can this blog be ehy ? Sorry , been busy with school . & also , im super lazy to on the laptop again . Hahs ! due to some reasons . Im alr lazy to do many stuffs . Currently , nothing to do . As always , im alone at home . My family , not backk yett . and i swear , i miss my sister alot . haiishhh .

Just now , school was so-so . Did not do many stuffs . SS , group work , Maths , one worksheet . P.E running and also played floorball which was very very violent . ahahaha . Okayh , then was chemistry , much more worse ! i slacckkkeeeddd all the way . Seating at the back do have a lot of advantaged okayy ! hhahaha . Hmm , then assembly . Finish school . Then straight away went to tamp , met jaja . Proceed to pasir ris to do my ez-link then go home . heheeh .
Damn , im so bored right now . What can i do at home alone ? tsk . Wish he's here right now .

what if someone did not confess to you that he/she likes you since the beggining till now ? & then , blame it on you for moving on . what the hell is this ? & he/she tells you that he/she have been waiting for you all the way long . But what proves it ? Sometimes , i just dont understand people like this . uuurgggghhhh !

kkayh , no mood to post alr . will post whenever im free .

2010-01-19T20:59:00.003+08:00

Somewhere , there is someone that dreams of you and your smile ,
and find
your presence that life is worthwhile .
so when you are lonely ,
remember that it is true ,
somewhere , someone is thinking of you .

ahhhhhhhhhhhh . feeling so lonely right now . I just dont know whyy . Kkay , forget it . Oh well , currently watching just for laughs asian . ahahaha . superb funny lahh . Its been superb long since i watched the tv oke ! i dont know why i've not been active at anything lately . Not even the internet . Yeahhh , but that doesnt even meant tht i studied . haahah . all i do is lay on my bed , and just waiting for the next dayy . hahs . Seeee , how boring could this be ?

Today schooolll ? okeeee okeee lahh . Can say borrriinnggg ! But but hell yeah , P.E was fun . Me , syqin , syaf and jing yi attended p.e for only 20 mins . ahahahh ! we walk2 around like whuatt . Then for PE we had to this teamwork thingyyy , and have to do that 'caterpillar' move . Hahs , and me & team members ; Syiqin , Syaf , Jing Yi & mumtaz came in 1st ! hahahaah . We were like faster faster , other group wer elike hell funny . We laughed like crazy peeps . Something funny happened during recess too . ahahahah . oke whatever . chemistry sucks . Aseembly ? always never enjoyed it . Finish sch , did cip work for a while & aft tht met jaja for a whilleeee .

okayyee . wanna rest for now . tataaaaa !

im back !

2010-01-18T20:55:00.003+08:00

hello hello hello !

sorry for not updaticg for such a lonnnnnggggggg time kkay ?

lately , i've been so busy witch school , cca , outside dance & with other people . I've been so busy and tired till that i've put aside my laptop . hahaah ! what a shock ! i've never check my mails , tagged , facebook , msn since the day of school reopens . so im sorry yeah ppl ?

Well , life's great right now . Everything is going fine as what im expecting . But but , the school system ? nahhhh . not enjoying it at all . School ends at 2.00 everyday . Like wth ? and there's no more common test (CA1) but there's test on every wednesday . Sicccckkkeeenniinngggg . right ? I can easily die in Ping Yi one day . My gawwdddd . ________ principal . or whoever who ahd these ideas lahhh . im sure most ping yians agree to it . lol !

Kkayy , well , recently , just came back from KL . Heeeehss ! went wif Km2 & suara setia ! foooohhh , it was hell lots of fun . I mean , no parents , no rules . hahaahah . well , went there coz got wedding invitation . Malaysia nohhh . hahahaa . Saw a lot of these , ' mat rempits ' . & my friends would shout to disturb them. " eh , acai acai " hahahaha . Obviously they got it from the story , "Bohsia" . hhahahaah . funny uh . We depart from spore at 11pm on friday . reached there around 6 . First we went putrajaya to take photos and stuffs . Then that place . Perform and all .. Then back to hotel . Forgot whats e name . Then around 9pm , left the hotel . Enjoy2 around malaysia . Oh well , went out wif jaja , nadrah , jack , wan , raden , amirul and max ~ went masjid india to have a late dinner . hahahaa . after that i was flat . Swear it was fun . We disturbed ppl over there . hahahaha . Oh ya ! Over there , everyone smoked like dragons . hahahaha . Well , one box of ciggar costs 7.80ringgit malaysia . So , it was like $4+ in spore . What else , they smoke like hell lahhs . For me , i only bout 1 box for 2 days . Yeahh , dont wnna die so fast . hahaaha .

Last day in KL , everyone went to the chocolate factory . Those chocs were so marvellous ! it was yummmyyy . Then we went batik factory . Aft tht , the central mall . Thats where most of the seni stuffs are at . e.g , kompang , topeng and stuffs . We then book out from hotel . & aft tht , went masjid india to have a last minute shopping / lunch . then around 4+ , made our way back . But along the way , ahd a few stops . At 2nd link & spore causeway ... had some jams . Then , reached malay village around 11.20 or so . And time to say Goooogggggbyeeeeehhh ! to everyone . & oh guess what ? i could not even wake up today . hahahaa . mummy woke me up so many times and i said i dont wanna go to school . & at last , i found myself waking up at 5.30pm . seeee , how tired i am ! hahs .

more pictures will be uploaded the next time kkay ? im lazy to upload more here .

2010-01-05T22:43:00.002+08:00

SANTI WILL UPDATE BACK WHEN SHE'S FREE !

2010-01-03T04:12:00.013+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR , 2010 !!

may all of you have a great year ahead aye ?

& hell yeah , countdown was great .
i'll post bout it again next time .
but now , i'll show d pics .
more pics will come real soon .

Today , 29 december 09

2009-12-31T01:29:00.005+08:00

29 Dec 09 ' !

time shows now ; 1.41 am . & im still not yet asleep .

Hahahaha . how to sleep ? no one can make me sleep yet =( sediiihhhh , i know . Hmmm , busyuk sleep already . sad enough . hahahaha . Well , today went out with dearest Nana & Fafa . Accompanied them go Ite Simei to pay the school fees & also , but the school uniform . Saying bout school uniform , i just remembered that i havent bought my school short . hauhua ! kayh , skip that part . Hmmm , was really funny over there . Weird people around the school . ahahah . Then after that , we made our way to century square , went food culture and ate there . After that , i met jaja and we both proceed to Km2 training ... Foooooohh , at that point of time i was superb duper stressssss with some fucking stuffs . Stress as in , disappointed kind of way . & i smoked like howmany sticks in a shot . & so , my head was heavy . lol . whatever . Stress pehy pasal . Training ended around 9.30 , walked off around 10 , chill2 at macs . then , chased for the bus . & oh , home sweet home .

to you ; i want to overrrniigggghhhttttt lah ! (please?)

anw , to all , HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010 ~ !
make sure you all enjoy all you cannn ehy ! (i hope so too )
may you all have a GREAT year ahead ehyyy .

tata .

2009-12-29T23:23:00.011+08:00

Foooooooooooooooooh !

what a great day today ! hehs .

oh well , woke up around 8+ .. wanted to go for malay dance . then then , suddenly having so so bad stomachache & was so hard for me to move . Yeahh , so decided not . After that , just remembered that today i have to buy ma school shoes lahh kans . So , at 9+ am , i called and waked my dear nanakido :D . hehehehe . Best right ? got my alarm ? i knowww , your welcome dear . ahahahah ! next mission , will wake u up at 6am (= . Get ready oke ? Yeah , then asked her to accompany me buy sch schoes . & okay . So got ready around 2... && wanna noe what ? I waited for her for damn 40mins ! urggghhhh . Da biase perh ? anaq bertuah btol ! hahaaha . Then walk2 around && oh ! i bumped into my dearest Jaja && ahmad && ayie . lol .

Around 6 , headed to bedok inter . 1st stop ! go KFC , makan2 ... then , searched for my shoes & got it . Damn it was , $30 . but nice . hahaha . cut my fringe too (= hahahah . dunnoe if its nice or not uh . look liked the old me except that its longer . Then , nana decided to stay in my cribb since i cant stay out late coz of ______ . hahaahha . damn it . nvm nana , i know you know , only we know . Hmm , then she left around 10.30 pm .

now now , let the pictas talk kayh .

away now .

P/s ; im missing you ,

2009-12-28T17:38:00.004+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE ! (=
weeeeeeeeeeee ~~ so long lah kan i nvr update ? hahaax .

to everone , im sorry that i private my blog the past week and never invited anyone . I did it because i wanted to get ma blog a new look , with a new post . yeahhh ! and then , unprivate i back .; Or not , people come and read my blog also for nothing . hehe . So how have you all been ? && oh ya ! the great thing is that , i've stopped working . My last dae was on christmas day . Sadddddd ! super sad . I do want to work during school time , But thinking back , i will have many stuffs to do . & furthermore , i have many events coming up next year , for sure . Yeahh , so to my friends , now's the time to call me and bring me out kayhhh ! santi not busy animore . hahaha . im free at last .

Damn ! new year coming already and then , 2010 . How fast is dis ? serious shit uh . & sooner , im gonna be 15 already . Ya know , sometimes staying young is better to me . hahahah . && fuck , im so not ready for school . Wanna noe something better? I havent even buy my school books ! hahaaha . bustard lah santi . Well , that just shows how not ready i am for school. I just cant wait to meet back all my friends and the class next year -__-''' . Yesterday , i just bought my school bag uh . At bugis . with busyuk (= hahahaaha . Well , i will always have a great time with busyuk . hahaaha ! sape makan chilli terase pedas . =p .

Oh well , later on , i will be buying my shoes and school books , i think . && guess what ! its a record that i never go out today ! this past 2 weeks , i've been going out and coming back so late around 12 . Many people nag of me coming back late ! irritating . hahahaah . But dah biasee dah . Degil tetap degil kan ? hahahah . Ouhhh , i hope next year will be a great year lahhh . thats all . & my beloved besties and friends , i do miss you all . Although we're not close animore . But hey , bestfriends forever yeah ?

Hmm , so , where ya'll geading to for countdown ? hahaah . me ? had plans but not sure yet lahh . i'll see how ! (=

okayh lahhhhhh ..... i'll post again next time !

chaoz .

2009-12-14T10:11:00.015+08:00

hola hola .

currently in the hotel room .

Yesterday , begged mummy like hell just to get the internet for 24hr . heheeh ! & gladly , i got it . So yest morning , i even slept around 4 and today woke up at 9.30 . I cant wait to be home . I CANT WAIT ! Eu noe , sometimes no matter how far you go , you will still miss home . Im missing home and my people :D . heheeh . blerhs . not to forget , i have to go work back after this holidaes . damn ! & then , school will start . My gawwdd ! how fast time past by ?

Oke . whatever . now , let me eleborate more bout my 4th day in hongkong yesterday .
Well , me and family went to the Ocean park . It has dolphins and all . The best thing is it was an amusement park , again ! -_-''' . God , now im so sick and tired of rides . Well , this park was better than disneyland . Coz its so thrilling and exciting . Like one of the roller coasters , It was fucking scary , and i just dont know how to explain my expressions . But let me just tell you , i somwhow, CRIED after that ride . heheheheeh . i know , scary cat lah kans ? But well , it was my firsttime riding that huge roller coaster which go round and round . OMG ! thats the best i ever had . && oh , rem , at spore there's this , wild n wet at escape ? At ocean park , it was soooo cool , we went round the hills and then the slide was sooooooo high , i screamed like no one cares . heheheeh . whatever ! & thanks to yesterday , i lost my voice today . damn .

Oh oh ! not to forget , i took many rides that has heights . Like , the cable car , hot air balloon & the wheel . The most that i was scared of was the hot air balloonn . It was so so high . & i dont even dare to look down . I was shivering like hell up there . But well , its all the experience that counts . (=

now , let me show eu some pictures . I dont wanna upload alot over here coz its so damn slow . So , more will be either in facebook or , tagged . alright ? (=

2009-12-12T13:50:00.002+08:00

hey dear frrens !

currently im in the pacific coffe club . hahaha . saw the free internet access . So quicly , use it . hehehee . Well , currenlt im at hongkong's peak view . Its near the higlands . & its freeeezziinng cold up here . Coz we're near the hills and of course its a different climate . YEahh , yesterday me and famiuly did a lot of shopppiinng ! fooooh . today night , going to the ladies market . heheeh . therefore , shop again . Hmm , i really cant wait to go home yo ! im missing ALL my friends there =(

well , i cant really post a lot now coz got some idiotics still waiting for the comp . YEahhh . so must share lah kans . Well , people i wont update any of my tagged , fb or anything . When i get back then i will let all of u noe k ! wait for me ! :D .

tc frennsss .

2009-12-10T22:20:00.003+08:00

hey there !

im here to post again . but like seriously , i cant post for long coz im usin the hotel's free internet access . Yeahh , so cant really post for long .

Todayy for superrbbbb FUNNN ! && full of excitement . Today me and family went to the famous Hongkong Disneyland . But the rides are not as fun as i expected . ahhaah ! what do u expect ? disneyland , so its more to younger children . Well , woke up around 8 .. left the hotel around 9.30 . reached there arnd 10 ..

Im really happy that i got to visit the disneyland , like finally . Took lots of photos with the characters .. like Mickey , Minnie , pooh & more lah . There was also this Winter parade and then the whole road was full of snow ! really cool . I swear hongkong's weather is really really cold . Especially in the night . I have to wear this thick sweater . but i'd prefer this weather than the one in spore . Ohoh ! && the roller coaster was a bomb ! i really really love it ! thrilling yo .

Damn , im really missing singapore right now ehy . i wanna go back there asap ! hehehehe . missing many people .

Well , 2moro will be checking out of this hotel and moving to another hotel , which is near the city area . & thats where all the SHOPPINGGG begins . hehehehe . i really cant wait for that . got to buy many stuffs . But to my close friends , i wont forget you all alright ;) heheeh .

Hopefully , the other hotel has wireless there . Coz if not , its a waste that i even brought my lappy to hongkong but not using it , grrrrrrr !

oh well my dear friends , gtg now . hahaha . im alone at this lobby and its already late now .

take care you all !

2009-12-09T21:57:00.002+08:00

hey there people !

currently im in hongkong hollywood hotel ! heheheehe .

well , reached here around 5 just now . && i swear its bloody cold over here .

well.. 2moro i'll be going to hongkong disneyland theme park .

i gtg now! enjoys ur holidaess aye . Cant wait to be home .

im missing many people right now =( .. especially ____________ .

hehs ! tata ! post agaen another dae !

2009-12-08T18:48:00.004+08:00

This is the way you left me ,
im not pretending ..
no h0pe , no love , no glory ..
no happy ending .

Like what i said , in the previous posts .. I will deal with all my problems no matter how long it takes . But whatever it is , patience is virtue & i do believe in that . About the summon that i got from HSA bout smoking is all dealt already . Somehow , my mother got that warning letter & she refused to talk to anyone at that night . & that nisght i came back home arnd 12 coz of work . Since she refused to talk , i decided to write a letter to her . While i was writing those words , hurtful tears flow out . Been thinking like , how could i do that to my family ? for troubling them about all these . & well , of course i apologised to her and the rest of my family member . I realised my mistake & promised not to do it . & in that letter i've even wrote bout all the problem that im facing . & i think she can understand it thats why she forgave me . Mothers will always forgive their own daughter right ? im lucky for that . & so , 1 problem accomplished .

Next thing , i've moved on . & i know its great to hear that i've moved on . Right now , just let me go on with my single life . I guess , we were not ,meant to be together . We just somehow met halfway . Oh well , stangers can become lover & therfore lovers can become friends right ? to live , i have to be optimistic and move on with my ambitions in life . Whats up next ? well i dont know .

Oh friends ! i will really miss all of you . I'll be going to Hong Kong from 2moro onwards & it will probably be a week or so . Miss me , miss me ? hahahaah . well , take care & i hope i'll enjoy my time there . Ohhh shitx , i havent even pack . im lazy to . heheeh . well , gotta go now . tata !

2009-12-05T17:01:00.008+08:00

heyhey people !

sorry for going m.i.a alwayss . hahas . i've been too busy & always lazy for me to go surfing the net . well , Overall yesterday , was a greaatttt day wif nanakido . hehe. right nana ?

Well , yest worked from 12-5pm .. then met nana outside my workplace at 6pm .
then , we decided to chilll at townn .

yeahh , so took the mrt to city hall . & as she wanted to eat some traditional food . I brought her to Sakura near capital mall there . Overall , the food was nice . im sure nana enjoy it coz you should see how she finishes her food . haahahah ! bluehkz .

Then , we decided to go to esplanade and sit down , and talktalktalk .
Surprisingly , we met new friends lah huh . hahaah . Well , this was really unexpected but i swear both me and nana hate those people . hahahaa. First there were 3 guys , with all weird name . Bang , chubby and i dont know one more name . Only nana knows . hahahaahah ! well their age were are 18-20 . Thenn , 2 more guys came . Lol , and 3 more came . so total , there were like 10 lah . but i really cant remember . I swear talking to them were like talking to some immatured , stupid , brainless , low IQ people . hahahaha ! Well , like what people say , dont judge the book by its cover . I couldnt stnad when nana had to entertain 2 , what i called , down syndrom people . haha . Seriously , they are more than what u all always say , "world" ... they are like more worse than that . & when they talk , nothing just come in sense . hahaahahh ! stupid poeple .
Then , they wanted to go drink alcoohol and asked us to join em . But we denied to .. At last , they shoooooo off ! hahahaah . kecoh lahh kans .

Then , we both headed to tamp back coz i have to go for my collague's farewell party . Yahh , so at last , we went home around 11.45 .. overall , i really enjoyed it !

shots now ~!

2009-12-01T00:31:00.011+08:00

Dammnnnssss , im sick sick sick .

hahs . Well , today went work arnd 12 , & came back at 1 . Was feeling sick and cold , so my manager sent me home . Coz he could see i was sick . Whyy suddenly sickk uh ? My voice now rockk uh . haahahaha . so went home , straight away fall aslleeeppp . Then , at night watched tv , 80 days around the world . Veryy funny show . laughed all by myself . Then , me & sis watched panaromal activity . Not that scary as i expected . cheyyy . if you all wanna watch , i rather encourage you to buy e cd instead than watching on movies . Waste your $$$ . hhehehehe .

So , hmmm , yesterday went changi beach with my some of my km2 friends . Theyy wanna picnic . hahaha . so just joined lahs . got nothing to do summore . So , reached under yan's block around 12 . then went off & reached changi around 1 , settle down 1.30 . Then some of them played e guitar , singing and some playing with water . hahahaa . But , i decided to rollerblade while nadrah cycleee . Superb long i never rollerblade , & luckily , i still can . hehehe . Starting , i was scared . But after a few mins , i managed to overcome it .

Thenn , at night , we decided to talk2 , sing songs and finished up the food . Go home around 9+-10 ... Overall , it was great last minute picnic . && i enjoyed my daeeee , hahas .

Well , e pictures will showww ,

2009-11-27T01:13:00.002+08:00

broken hearted girl lyrics .

You're everything I thought you never were
And nothing like about you could've been
But still you lived inside of me
So tell me how is that

You're the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I loved and not forgive

And though you've break my heart

You're the only one

And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can't erase the times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now I hate you its pains me to say
I know I'll be there at the end of the day

I don't wanna be without you babe
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna to take breath without you babe
I don't want to play that part
I know that I love you but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kinder way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't want to play the broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl
I'm no broken-hearted girl

There's something that I feel I need to say
But up 'til now I've always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I wanna put this ou
tYou say you got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel your not deserving of me
And still you're in my heart
But you're the only one

And yes there are times when I hate you
But I don't complain
Cause I've been afraid that you would walk away
Oh but now I don't hate you
I'm happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day ....

I don't wanna be without my baby
I don't want a broken hear
tDon't wanna to take breath without my baby
I don't want to play that part
I know that I love you but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kinder way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't want to play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl, no, no .

2009-11-08T01:15:00.008+08:00

helloe people !

sorry for not posting for some time ehs . Been workingg lahh . sorry yah .

Kae so , before i like talk bout today , i wanna talk bout yesterday . ; 6th November 09 .

Yeahh , so on that dae , already had plans with this wonderful lady ; Nanakido !
heheh . yeahh , so i spent the whole day going out with her . hmm , so planned to meet her at tamp inter at , 2 , then then , she msg arnd 11+ , saying tht she finish school and wants to go earlier . hahaha ! && i just woke up . ahaha . so yeahh , then met her in the mrt around 2+ . Hmm , i really really wanted to like eat pizza , i dont know why ? cuaca agak bagos lah ehk nana ? hahaha . So , decided to eat at pizza hut , marina square . So , to nana , its your lucky day . hahaha . we eat eat eat , got dessert . kenyang naq mampos ! hahaah . then aft tht go toilet . In the toilet , like freezer like that , i dont know how people survive there . hahaah . it was damn damn damn cold like foooo ! shivering ! then , we walk2 , all the way to bugis . At bugis , change some clothes size . then , we decided to lepak2 near esplanade . hahaah . so , we like walk all the wae back to esplanade lah kans . At esplanade , we dont know why the seats by the bay are closed with some panels . yeahh , we really dont know why . So , since i know where to lepak , I brought her to singapore river . There , we relax our mind , slack2 , talk2 , then we go off around 8.30? i dont know . After trained to tamp , since i still got time , i slacked at nana house .
My gawwddddd ! i swear i love your house . Really unique tawuuk ! Butbutbut , I HATE YOUR WATCH ! hahahaah . it played a fool to me . Wanna noe why people ? We were talkinq2 , i see e clock , 9.05 .. so i thot it was still early , then , we talk2 agaen , this time kinda long , i see the clock , 9.07 .. then i like .. conferm or not sia ? i check my hp , 10.07 siowww ! hhahah . then i was shocked . hahaha ! played a fool sey . still can laugh at me , hahhahah ! takper2 . Even that bell , which i thought there was ice cream man . hahaha . kae , whatever ehk !

Around 10.30 i had to be at ma workplace . coz got general meeting , then they gave us eat pizza , yet , i rejected it . too much pizza for me ! hahaha . then , reached home around 12.30 . (=

here are some pictures .

Today , had work , from 12-6 .. then , after work took train to Orchard , met ma family and aunties and cousins to celebrate Bibik's birthdayy . HAPPY 43rd Birthdayy ! hahaha . Dine at Sakura cuisine . Superr kecohh ! hahaha . so what ? hahaha . Mummy bought for me a bag and cardigan . thankkieeeuu mummy . reached home around , 11.30 (=

damn damn , how can i say this to you dear ? Im just missing you too much ya know ! Sometimes , its so hard making me thinking bout you all day long . Do you ? Like i really need you at times , but we're both busy right ? i know . I really hope there will be a time for both of us . A great time i mean . I just need and i just want your love now !! how i wish im beside you right now ... :(

2009-11-03T21:54:00.003+08:00

hello .

hhm , today , really nothing muchh , just that , i finished working at 5.30 instead of 5 . Due to some things .

Yeahh , so while waiting for the bus . suddenly , bestie ; Syiqin text me . hehehehe .
ko rindu aku kankan ? hahaha . cheeehhh . lol . we must meet up soon oke sayang ? i have like billions to talk to you . its been so so long that we meet up right ? lol . im gonna meet you up soon aye ~ i miss you truckloads . Boring tao keje2 , tak dapat jumpe kawan . Kalao kat tempat keje tu ader kawan hebat tkper uh . hahaahah . mit you up soon . okeee ?

Damn , im having too many problems these days . Life's just fucked up ya know ? can anyone understand my postion at this point of time ? Blerhhhs . Just cant find myself and the solutions for all these crap . fuucckinng shitx lahh .

oh well , i like , dun have anymore to talk bout .

p.s ; i just wanna say that i miss you .

goodbye .

2009-11-02T22:40:00.002+08:00

heyheyhey !

well well , just had ma rest and i guess , i'll just blog for a while . hahs .
This is ma holiday , ehich to me , no holiday . hahaaha . Coz , i'll be goin work in the morning , afternoon go home . Unless , there are plans to go out . Yeahh . The next day , it will be the same . Well , i really enjoyed work just now . Haahha . It was funn . I swear working in the morning is much much better coz like its not really packed compared to the night time . && we do not have to do the closing ! yayy . Hmm , some more , i cant wait to go out with my fwenzie fwenzie all . Its been a long time right ? i'll try to get ma off for all of you kae sayangs ! i will really try my best . Oh well , nothing much to post tho . so i guess , i'll post another dae . Olryte !

goodbye hunneys .

2009-11-02T00:31:00.002+08:00

i've been feeling so restless lately .

i dont know why ?

goodd , i really dont know what's going on my mind . somthings are just bothering me . It makes me keep on thinking and thinking ..

How should say this ? hmm , my dearest ayie !! i just miss you so much , i swear . It was really a coincidence that we met just now . & now , i swear i really miss you . I just wish to tell you , that i love you :( If you had notice , we're not really close as before .. i miss all those fun , those jokes , those sweet moments and all those times that im with you . How i wish you really beside me now.. I don't know how much will i survive if i am going overseas . hehs . But i like , really really really wana meet you now ! & tell you how much hell i've been going through without you . Well , its kinda sad that i am not so close to you now . & i hope you will keep the trust that i gave you . damnn ... i just dont know whagt else . Its this thats just bothering muchh , therefore , i post it . hahah .

bby , i just wana tell you that i love you :(
i love you so much .
& i miss you more than anything else .

2009-10-31T23:56:00.002+08:00

haloo haloo (=

Well well , just had a loooonnggggg conversaiton with the dearest Nanakido ! hahahaa . gerek laa bbl ngn dierh . Mcm 10 tahun tak bobual gytuu kan ? hahahaa . (= We talked for like , 2hours ? hahaha . mataer pon tk lamer gytuu . hahahaa .
Get well soon oke syg ? drink hot water tau ! heheheh . && i will still remember my revenge to you kkay ! jaga diri tu baek2 ahr! hahahaha . =p

Woooohoooo , like finally ? i've rebonded ma hair + highlight . yayyyy ! hahahaha .
Yeahh , its been so long that i go johor right ? yeahh , so went johor just now .
& guess how lond it took to do ma hair ? 5 blooddyy hours . yeahh . i sat for 5 hours . wow . i was sleepy at the same time . hahaha . keep on falling asleep while the people doing ma hair . hahahh . well , whatever . then aft that , bought some make up at faceshop AGAIN . lol, thanks mummy for like spending alot on all those . then , go makan dinner with family . Had seafood ! then go homeeee .

yeahh , nothing muchh laa today .

Damn , i miss my friends . like supperrbb much ! i wanna hang out will u all leh . But always not free . damnnn it . but i will try to make up one dayy !

&& hahs , now , i'll be working from 12-5 .. so that i can meet my dearest ! hahahah . damn , i miss you so much .

oke , nothing muchh to post now , & ohmygod ! its already 1st nov ?? so fast seyyhh .

got to go now . goodbye yo .

2009-10-31T00:20:00.003+08:00

Results are out .
Im promoted to sec 2 express (= ( thank god)

&& the best SCHOOL"S OUT !

Hello people !

okay okay . i know i've been missing in action for these days . right ? i swear im like superb busy . Ok , i know its the holidaes already . But im busy coz of , WORK . hahaha . yeahh , im working . somewhere . wanna noe ? ask me . im not gonna tell the whole world where ehyy . Hahaha . Okee , its kinda sad that i dont get to really enjoy my holidays to the fullest due to work . haiyaaa ! nevermine . for the experience and $$ . I made alot of new friends over there tho . (= and sometimes , i will get too tired .
But i wanna say ,

Sorry to my friends that i cant really enjoy2 with all of you after school and morreee =(
Sorry to my family that i can't get close as before =(=(
Sorry to my dearest boyfriend , coz i cant meet you so much as before and be close as before !
butbut , my love for you will never fade away kay !

well , just now in sch had the award giiving ceremony thenn , e operation class clean up . I received a cute teddy bear by my form teacher for being the monitress of d year ! heheeh . and and got a notepad . superb happy ! andand , i swear i will miss my class ; 203 . the wildest n kecohh class ! i will miss my brudderz ; afiq n zuhairi for always joking around with me and making me happy . damn , i will miss so many things ! well , hopefully it will be a better year next year . hopefully .

so currently , chatting with my dearest and also updating my rusty blog here . soon , gonna update many other stuffs . ohmygod ! how long have i not like play this lappy ? hahaha .

well , gtg now . tata fOr nw yoooo .

2009-10-18T23:29:00.001+08:00

WILL UPLOAD NEXT TIME .

TIRREDDD !

(=

2009-10-17T22:33:00.015+08:00

i've been trying to post since 2pm just now . But i just can't .
tooooo busy with this open house thing . Damn , im so tired .

So yeah , today , having open house . Goddd , im so tired .
But still , i do enjoy . With all those great food . yummmy .
&& thanks to my dearest primary school friends , syiqin , khabir outside friends and KM2 seniors and juniors for coming (= you guyz really made me happy today . and it makes the surrounding much more lively . right guys ? hahah .. Thanks ! i really appreciate it tho .

kayh , i guess bout today , i will post 2moro or some other day aye .
Now , im gonna talk bout yest ! ; 161009 .

So yeahh , yest , woke up at 12+ , date with my dearest Syiqin . hahahahaha .
I was suuposedly suppose to meet her at 1.30 . hahaha . but i just woke up , so dragg till 2 . yeahh , rushed rushed rusehd . and i reached at there at 2+ .. i thought she was already at phonebooth . Damn it , i have to wait for her . hahahah . She reached around 2.35 ? yeahh .

The greatest thing was ; I bumped into my boyfriend . hahahaah !
So yeahh , i was standing at the phonebooth .. looking around , then i saw this 'someone' ..
from far , he looks soo familiar .. near n near .. it was my dearest ayie ! hahahaah . im sho happyh to like bumped into him siaaa . I mean , he couldn't make it for our anni .. coz of 'some things' . So even though i bumped into him for a while , it still made my day happy (= then he went off first . Then , 2 mins aft , syiqin came .. we headed our wae to mrt to go Orchard . Yeah , then bumped into ayie again . hahahaa . He dropped at Bugis , me and syiqin go Orchard . Walk2 at orchard . She was really having that attitude , " shop till you drop " hahahaha . for me , i was saving money . hahahaha . yeahh . around 5.15 we took bus .. go Marina Square .
At marina square , syqin met her boify , wildan , then we made our way to Marina barrage .

Yeah , reached marina barrage around , 6.45 ? i guess .
My gaawwwdddd , for such a long time , like at LAST , i go there . hehehe . Thanks to my dearest syqin for bringing me there . she knows i wanna go there . heheheh . (=
Reached there , saw the beautiful sunset . I became the photographer for that couple . && as i look around , you know , actually i really wished he was there with me , yesterday .. but nevermine . i understand tho (= it was just hopes . Then , the greatest part of all . We played the water are , with all the nice fountains and camwhore here there , everywhere . GEREEKK !
we were all damn wet after like splashing at each otherr ! fuuuhh . hahaha . like just finished bathing . hhhahaha . run there , here . hahah . who cares if ppl watching us ? hahaah . at least we enjoyed right syiqin ?

We moved around 8.15 , the bus came at 8.45 -_-'''' . naek binget sakk . then , took mrt go home . thought of going bedok to eat . but decided not to , so dropped at eunos , nearer to take bus home . reached around 10+ ..

now , lets just see the pics aye ?

2009-10-16T00:03:00.007+08:00

He's my sweetest kiss ,

My tightest hug ,

My greatest love .

He's just the one that I will ask for everyday .

& he's the only one guy , I wish that will always stay .

Sometimes , his attitude makes me so angry ,

Sometimes his words , just do hurts me ..

But , at the end of the day ...

HE's the only one that will make me happy .

Khairil Khusaini ,

thanks for making our love strong until this far ..

& i'd really hope we'll go further , than expected .

Im sorry for every mistake that i made ,

i really hope you'll forgive and forget .

I will try to be a better lover (=

I love you so much , and i will never stop loving you .

HAPPY 7th ANNIVERSARY , KHAISTIRILAH !

since 160309 .

i LOVE today ! :D

2009-10-15T18:18:00.005+08:00

Woooohoooo ! im superb superb happy today lah sei !

Wait wait , first of all , i wanna thank my music group for co-operating with me all this while and giving me the teamwork that i wanna see . I love you all and i will miss being team mates with all of you ! thanks guyzz . Our hard work really paid off (=

kkay , YAYNESS ! to ME , exams are like so gonna be over , only left D&T , but nothing to study for D&T , just draw2 so easy lahh . Cheyy , skali fail . nonono . i wont kkay . YEahh , so now all the important subjects are over and especially music . After a week of practice and storming our brain for the stomp . After quarreling , insulting each team mate . At last , we got 44/50 for musicc ! ohhmg ! im like so happy by that . after music i was like supeerr crazy , and shouted so loud . ehehehehe . i succeed ! yay me .

okeee , so after that music lesson , quickly call kawan2 and met them at bubble tea shopp . Then , they wanted to go tamp . But i wanted to change my clothes first , sho , humairahbby accompanied me to ma cribb and slack2 there first . Then , around 1 we headed our way to tamp one . There , met up with Qeen and Syaf . Walk2 around there , then we decided to eat ice cream . so , went FROLICK . welll well , it was delicious , (if it wasn't sour enough for me ) hahahha . yeahh , so i was eating it with that sour expression , look . hahahaha . yeah , they laughed at me . so what ? cant stand it mahh .

After walking at tamp , we made our way to whitesands . Walk2 there , buy stuffs . Then , they decided to go home , while i go syiqin house and hang around there . Chill2 and play around with that cute kitty , hahahaah . irritating doh ! okeee .

then around 7++ , syiqin wanna meet her boify , so teman her uh . go sepak takhraw court , lepak2 watch em play.. around 8.30 .. went homeee (=

OHH ! 2moro is the dae .
but sadly , someone cant make it huh ? sad enough .

hola .

2009-10-13T17:07:00.002+08:00

well , i decided to like delete the previous post coz i did not really type much right ? hahs . what do you expect ? i was tired and sleepy yesterday .

well ... let me elaborate bout yest kkay ?

YESTERDAY ! finished school around 11.15 thrn had to do music until 12+ .. reached home around 1 .. then leave house around 1.40 .. went tamp n met my dearest ayie and his friend , hakim . Then headed our way to Pasir Ris . Waited for mamat at Pasir ris for quite a long time . Yeahh , they pierced , then , we lepak2 at Pasir ris park . Walk there .. walk here .. walk everywhere .. at night , lepak2 at spider web there . Then , i went back around 8+( which actually i did not want to ) hehehehee . Then reached home around 10 . Then rest rest rest . listen to song and nothng muchh tho .

TODAY !

Currently im in library alone , studying my for my History paper 2moro .
Well , woke up early in the morning ; 11am .. cause my music memberz keep on calling and sho i woke up by those calls . I like almost forgot bout the plan . which was to do our music project at east coast . Bathed quickly and then rushed out of the house . Then we made our way to east coast . Firstky , ate at Burger King . Then we started to hit the rhythms . Like finally , we manage to finish 2/3 of our rhythms . damnnn . so tiring . After finishing e whole thing .. they decided to play bowling . what else ? i join too . hehehe . like seriously , i really thought that i like suckk in bowling . believe it or not , i wont 2 games ! hehehehe . the last game my score was 137 ! hahahaha . bluekkk ! it was fun lah bowling with them . Wee Seng kept on hitting the longkang . hehehee . then we ended everything around 4.45 .. n they go home while i go studddyyy .

like seriously ,i cant get anything in my mind right now . Historyy is kinda difficult to me . I prefer geography !

well i got to go nowwww . tataaa ~~

I MISS YOU , KHAIRIL KHUSAINI .

NOThING day , again .

2009-10-08T22:59:00.002+08:00

i saw the beautiful moon shinning ..
as i was looking out of the window ,
when i was just sitting and thinking ..
i asked myself , why am i feeling so low ?

Hello everyone !

ohhhgawwd ! i really felt like there was no point to go school just now .. coz the only lesson that we had for today was , D&T . Besides than that , the tacher would say , " class , do your own revision" . So like , obviously , i did not bring anything to prepare for that free period . so like after 10 am , it was all free period . Sumpahh mendak ! Around 12.30 , it was homeroom period . So spent time with the class , ms wong asked us to sit in a circle formation . and we were suppose to say , " sorry and thank you to anyone" .. so like i had to say sorry to may of the dudez in my class , for always always disturbing them and insulting them , but yet , all these are just for fun . Im sure they knew my character too right ? yeahh . what are friends for ? and i said thank you to the whole class and the teachers for being great people to me . Damn , i will miss 203 so so muchh . Although , they are the most .... annoying , irritating , disturbing , wild , craziest class that i had for all my life , Yet , they are still the best , funny , fun , weird people that i've known . I love and miss you all ! =(

so yeah , thats all for todayy . (=

2009-10-07T23:44:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BDAY TO MY BABYBOY ;
Khairil Khusaini !

hello people . sorry for like , not updating for suchha long time . Sorry to those who wanna read but there's nothing to read about . sorry yeahh .

So , see that dude over there ? yeah , up there , well , it was his 16th birthday yesterday ; 0601009 .
Well , i am glad that i could also celebrate his birthday with him ^_^ . thanks sygg . and i hope he was happy yesterday . I swearr it was really really funn . hehehe . so , let me share bout it more yeahh ?

Met up with boyfie , arnd 7 , near his bus stopp . yeahh , then , somehow bumped into his sister and his mum . So , they wanted to go Ntuc . Well , his mum asked if i wanted to tag along .. so why not ? hahs . okeyy . Went around there to but some stuffs . then , help them to carry the stuffs and headed back to their house . Later on , Danial , Ahmad and Mamat arrived . Then , we waited for Acap too . Then , ayie and his family started to take photos . While they were taking photos , me and the other were planning to bash him ! hehehehe , im evil , i know!

The plan ; ahmad and danial go away for a while after they have eaten . Ahmad stepp like he was gonna meet his gurlfy , and danial accompanied him . But actually , there were buying flour and egg ! hehehehe . So , gave em the money and there goes our plann . Celebrate his bdae , and thats where the fun part begins ... We were slacking somewhere behind his blockk .. N booom ! first packet was thrown to him . but wrongly aimed !
Ayie kept on saying that he dun wana get his shirt dirty .. n he acted that he was angry .. so we waited for him to open his shirt .. wait2.. he ran away ! damnn it . run so fast sumore ! hahaha . yeah , so they were chasing around . while i was waiting . hahaha . around 10.40 , mamat n ayie came after running like the whole area . Then ahmad , dan threw more packets to him . the best part was ; Mamat fell backwards ! ( macam nangka busuk) hahahaha . Kesiannn! really . im sure his back was superb pain . hahahhaa . but , after all , everone enjoyed it right ?

see , im so evil . hahaha . Well, just wanna make my dearest happy . So left around 11.20 , then walk to donno where . and i took taxi home , reached home at 12 . (=

baby , i really hope you enjoyed your day yesterday .
most importantly , i hope you are really really happy !
may all your wishes come true .
I will always love you dear !
mwahhhh !
happy sweet 16 . (=

loves ' Santii

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2009-10-04T20:27:00.000+08:00

WILL UPDATE REAL SOON !
stay tune .

2009-09-29T00:48:00.002+08:00

They say loving you gives pains and full of sacrifices .
But I'll rather take pains
and lots of sacrifices than not to be loved by
you.

2009-09-28T22:31:00.028+08:00

HELLO HELLO !
people ! superrr sorry for not updating . eu know me , always busy with performances and events or outing . Never free always . hehehe ! oke , so where shall we start ?

well well , here it goes....

Friday , 25th Sept 09 .

i had a performance at mandai there . It was some type of a high class place . Called e Bali something . hahaha . so yeah , it was a wedding . A pilot , and an air sterwardess . E pilot was ang moh . E wife , a malay .. so , obviously there were many2 english ppl there , and rich people ! heheheeh . =p overall , i really enjoyed myself on that dae (= after everything , me and others mkn2 and lepak2 at bedok corner . reached home near to 2am .

Saturday , 26th Sept 09 .

VROOOOOMMM VRRROOOOOMMMM !

goes those F1 cars . Damnnn ! i love eu daddy . It was like a surprise and last minute plan . I dint knew he bought tichets for the F1 , there was 3 ticks . but , it was like kinda late for me to ask somone to tag along right ? yeahh , it MAGNIFICENT ! the sound was outstanding . Something that you could not take your eyes off . Especially Lewis Hamilton . *winkwink* .. heheh . yeahh. it ended around 11 . then i treat my family dinner :D . Got money already , so must think bout others too . Bby , ur turn will be next ! hahahaa . okyeah .

Sunday , 27th Sept 09 .

Raya outing with my dearest long lost primary school friends . heheh . (=
Went quite alot of houses and my legs were very very painful . I swear i hate using high heels okyeahh . The best house i seen in my life was Danish's house . It has 3 floors , with a basement . Home movie THEATRE , swimming pool , gym , rooftop a huge living room and many more . I swear that's like heaven in earth . hahaha . mind you , its 1 big damn bungalow . dammnn . rich dude . then , last house was irfan's , we watched Wujud . i swear its scary . I hate ghosts stories seyy . but what to do .. i went home feeling so scared . hahaha . kental ? i know . i am a scary cat . what can i do ?

ok tata people !

bloody tuesday .

2009-09-22T21:29:00.008+08:00

Without any hurtful feelings , that's not
even called life .
or even Love .
Sometimes , the best thing is ,
to Forget and Forgive .

OMG ! today is the most most sleepiest day of my life !
hahaha . i guess its because of not sleeping at all . heheheh .
so yeahh , go school , feeling sleepy already . I even like almost went to sleep during assembly . and in every lesson , i was asked to go to the toilet to wash my face ... hehehe . what to dooo...

okeee , skipskipskip . after school , i dunnoe wher my friends go .. so yeah . hmm , bumped into Azurah and izzati .. and they asked me to join em to eat at KFC , so i join ..

THANK YOU , AZURA , for treating me Kfc ! i love you .

Well , i did not want anything actuallie . but she wanted to treat me .. so just go with the flowww . hahahaa . but still , thank you so much , goodsoul . hahaha .

so reached home at 4 , slept until 8.30 ... i guess i was really really tired lahh .

okaye . thats all for today .

tata !

1st dae raya

2009-09-21T16:08:00.008+08:00

Let me continue now , for another post .

Yesterday , 200909 . was , Hari Raya ! yayyyyness .
At last , we get moneeyyy . and at last , fasting is over . time to seek for forgiveness lahh kans .
hehehe . yeay , so this year whole family wear Green ! hehehe . everyyear i will be the one picking e colour for all of us . hahah . n i make sure thay all buy e same colour ! hahaha

hmm , i woke up by hearing the takbir . yeshhh ! i cried .. hmm . sadsad .

then quickly cleared e house and got ready . I only had 2+ hrs of sleepinf after a tiredtired dae . so , i was really really sleepy yesterdae . My family only went 4 houses. Coz we went out late around 2 .. then , at nigvht , got some family wanna come already . so tiredd ! must entertain e children hhahaha and also clean that .. clean this .. wash the plates .. well , these are what gurls got to do aye . The last family left around 1.30 am . aiyoooo . hahah.

some pics of yesterdae .

Hari Raya !

2009-09-21T13:31:00.016+08:00

Heyyys people !

How has your hari raya been ? mine is superbly great but im so so tired .

Well well , on 190909 , had a performanc at malay village at night .
so there was Kompang and also tarian . Happening lah kans . I really enjoyed myself on that day . Thanks to my friends for dropping by (= , unexpectedly , my family too . At alst , they have the time to see me perform.. also , outside friends like Didi , zaki , iqin , firdaus and suhaimi ! (= im happy that you all could come down . thanksss (=

let those pictas talk now kaee ?

so yeahh , that was the event . At last semue kecoh2 . haahah . really enjoyed myself to e fullest . waited for our bus to come around 11.30 then it arrived . aiyooo . So reached km2 around 12+ .. Then help to pack2 the stuffs . After that , played bunga api for awhile :D .

Around 2am went to geylang . walk2 with kak khizzie and her fren , and km2 memberz . Like wanna die sia -_-''' . hahaha . so packed and crowdy and i almost fainted . thanks to kak yati who noticed and put me aside . hahaah . went home around 4.35 ... i slept at 6 . dannggsss !

2009-09-21T01:09:00.003+08:00

Sekarang , sudah tiba masanya ,
untuk kita sama-sama berbahagia .
Tidak kira kecil atau besar ..
miskin atau kaya ..
yang tua atau yang muda ,
Saya ingin mengucapkan Selamat Hari Raya !

Kepada semua ;

Istilah Susanti ingin mengucapkan
Selamat Hari Raya !
Saya ingin memohon maaf kepada semua untuk semua kesilapan saya
atau apa2 sahaja yang telah menyakitkan hati semua . Ribuan ampun maaf .
Tolong maafkan saya yerr . Harap-harap anda semua akan sentiasa bahagia .
Tetapi , jangan lupa kepada meraka yang tiada yaa .
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri !
Maaf zahir & batin .

takecare and make sure you collect lotsa monneeyy !
tataaaa!

2009-09-16T23:50:00.007+08:00

HAPPY 6TH ANNI SYG !

well well ! guess what ? like at last ! i got to meet up with my dearest boyfriend .

Around 7.45 met him at Bugis . Then went to Banquet at Raffles Hospital to eat since we havent breakfast . Hakim&girlfriend , Acap, and also one more gurl i dontknow who was also with us . Reached there , waited for Fizzy . Then , we ate .. after eating , decided to go to Esplanade to chillchill . Then , headed home around 10.45 .. and i reached home at 11.40+ .. (=(=

here's some pics .

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We've passed 6 months together , loving each other .

Baby , you're the one that i love and the one that i need always .

No one else can show me the love that i want except you .

You're the best and you made me knew what patience is .

I will cherich all those moments with you always .

Coz, even a minute with you , it feels long .

I will always appreciate your love , care and trust .

No matter how bad we argue , i know that i will still love you !

i love you so much , Khairil Khusaini !

stupid tuesday .

2009-09-15T20:39:00.002+08:00

ehhey people .

today is like the ... 4th last day of the fasting monthh . Woohhooo !
then later , Harii Raya ! yayyyness .

im craving for some things right now .
; double chocolate from Mccafe .
; famous amos cookies .
; subway cookies .
and i dont know what else . heheh .

I sweaaarr like after raya , or say , after exams , i need to go to the new malls in Orchard . I haven't have the chance to see that ION yett . and there's one more new shopping mall i know . Anyone wanna go with me? lol . andand ! i swear i have to go marina barrage again . Ok , i know its boring there but only if you go always . For me , the first and last time i went there was on what ? 31st december 2008 ? lol . I still could remember coz it was new year . Damn , i miss that scenery and that place . I also want to go roller blading at East Coast lehh . heheh . so many plans but not yet the time righht .

oke , skipskip . Well , today reached class , straight away sleep for a while . Then had to assemble at parade square . First period was maths . Thanksfully , i could pay survive maths lesson . Coz , usually , my eyes will really be like closing .. and nothing would get in my brain . so , thank god . Then English .. Then science .. then english again . Overall , very boring dayy . okyeah , after school , had malay dance again . really have to prepare for Hari Raya concert . haishhh , super fast and so many performances coming my wayy . hell yeah , im gonna be drop dead tired .

so , not many stories can be told todayy .
gottogonow .

i love ma boyfriend many2 (=
i miss him truckloads .

HAPPENING MONDAY .

2009-09-15T00:39:00.006+08:00

"fuckk!" "chhiibyee" ... and more words , was the first thing i heard when i entered my classroom . hahaha ! crazyy people .

oh well , school reopens and of course i was not not readyy ehyy ! Especially meeting my friends .

Lol .. the funniest things was i had comments like , " ehyy ! susanti , why you look so neat today?" from Wee Seng . "Did you lose weight?" from Fadhila . Lol , in my mind , was i like untidy always ? and like helloh ! i think i like gain more pounds this fasting month . hahah ! Weird people , weird time , weird day . Ohhh ! the BEST thing was , I for got to bring my tiee .. SHHIITOOO! and hell yeah , i must like wear it for my EVERYDAY of this week . Damn it .
So , i only never finish up my maths homework. hu cares right ??

kayhh , skip skip skip. After school had malay dance . It was a very last minute thing . I dont know why . Thanks to the principle i guess . blurrhhs . it all ended at 5.. then go homeee.

Around 6.30+ , left homee then straight away went geylang to meet nadrah , her boifee and his friend . yeayyeay ! had mucch fun with themm , walk2 around searched for nadrah boifee's samping . Then walk2 .. i told her manymany stories . Thanks for always being there for me favgurl . i love you manyyymannyyy !

So so , its like 1+ am , n im going to sleep .

countdown ! 1 more day to our 6th anniii (=

Bby , i love you and i miss you effing muchhh .
Only god knows how much it is .
My love for you is still strong although we dont ..
meet/chat/talk much for such time .
i need you always and forever .

okyeahh amigos ! i wanna sleep now . tata !

2009-09-14T00:38:00.002+08:00

well , let me continue now .

At bus 67 , got dis guy outside .. fight2 with this nyonya . hahah ! he wanna fight just because that nyonya hit tht guy accidentally . So , the bus driver didnt noe what to do ..
then , kak khiz came in front ,

kak khiz ; excuse me , this is a public transport . Everyone is waiting . can u please move away ?
guy ; *shouted* that lady , hit me ah , then never say sorry .
Kak khiz ; hello , im talking to you nicely , dont shout at me .
guy; sorry2 , i dont intend to shout at you .

then kak khiz , bring that nyonya go behind . bus driver close e door .

Lols . the funny thing was , this matreps at the back were like ..
" eh ada fight ar , mau pe join ? rembat skali sama dia "

me and other gurls , in heart , macam paham je lah ni semue . hahahah . MATREPS .

yeahh . then e performace was greatt . after performance , walk2 , then go home 12.30+ ..
reached home at 1 .

damn i have a great day yesterday .

Ohhh " Great" ! tommorrow schooling lah kans .
nid to wake up superb early , homework not done too . fucckk !

Well , nid to finish up all those bloody work .

oh ya ! i wnna thank my besties ! for supporting me that day . I love you people .
i miss shasha superb much lah kans !!

tata to you !

lazy sunday .

2009-09-13T17:28:00.000+08:00

heyh people .

damn damn , blogger superb irritating ehk ehk ?
sometimes can , sometimes cannot .

hmmm .. well , todays a Sunday . Lots of people been asking me out . But , i've been rejecting them . hahas . Sorry my dear friends . I dont know why , im so lazyy , summore no mood to go out . Haishhh . Today woke up at 1+.. I know , its late . But i swear i was real damn tired . I think due to yesterdayy's performance at Malay Village .

So, lets like talk bout yesterdayy .

woke up aroun 12 .. and im late ! so got ready and packed my stuffss fastly .. Then, had to meet my pri school friends for a while as they wanted me to pass something to someone . Yeahh , straight away after that , quickly rushed to Tampines . Met up with my derest Nadrahh . Then , headed our wae 2 Km2 . Reached there then strted to make up .. then around 5 , head our way to malay village .

Lol . this is the funny thing that happend in bus 67 ..

but ! let me continue later .

i have to rush to somewhere else .

tata !

2009-09-10T23:29:00.002+08:00

' learn to get in touch with the silence within yourself and
know that everything that happens in this life has a purpose. '

everyday , its the same .
Same lines ,
Same phrases ,
Same time ,
Same words ,
same things ...
but , do you still have that same feeling ?
i just dont know what im thinking .
if it's good , it has to last .

Can we be together ?
like how we used to be ...

2009-09-10T00:18:00.008+08:00

heyhyehye !

ohhh great ! Now , my room is all completed and im really happy bout it .
i really appreciate my mum's help coz she tidy everything for me since she knew i was busy with dance . I'll treat you back by the good deeds of mine okey ? heheheh . *hopefully*

So for today , i had the WHOLE day dancing . yeahh .
left my house around 2.30 and i was like superb late coz teh training should have started already . Well , reached tampines around 3.30 or so , then dance dance dance . Then , went bedok , and i ate Long John Silver fro breakkfast :D . heheeh . so long never eat there . Surprisingly saw my sayang , Syafika there too (= .. always bumped into her these days . i dont know whyy . hahaah , If its not her , it would be her mum . hahaha . okay , whatever . So left there around 8 .. Then me , kak khiz , kak yati n kak nadrah ( they are my dance memberz ) took a taxi and then go Bayshore condominium . Well , lets just say that we went there for training with the Bride and groom as they wanted to dance with us . Which , i dont know why ?
but who cares , as long as we got credits . huahuahua . BUT! its an experience for me though .

So , lets just say that the couple is like superb richhh ! well , the bride is a malay air sterwardess. The groom , an english pilot . So , what yyou'd expect ? hahs . Theyy are sweet though . Enough about them , so , reached there , they brought us to the dance studio .. which were all covered with mirrors . hahaha ! soo , like in every angel i can see myself and others . Yeahh , although the couple didnt know how to dance , yet the bride really achieve to get the steps well . Although it wasnt perfect . Its a jawa song and its not easy for a first timer ehy . The most tiring thing is , we dont really have a break . Which , i reallly felt like .... ohmygod , can i faint ? hahaah . Well , then i forgot what time it ends .. then , me and otherz slacked2 at the condominium ... hehehehe . Its really cool ya know .. the swimming pool ... and all , fooohhh ! wished i was living there . haha . DREAM ON ! thenn , we go home ... and agaen i reached home around 11+ ..

Damn , i HAVE to finish up my work , homework or whatever stuffs to do with school . Coz , i have no time already . shit shit shit .

IM MISSING YOU , KHAIRIL KHUSAINI !!!!!
damn , im so jealous of other couples .
can i see youu pllleeeeeaaasssseeeeee ?

some pics ;

me and nadrah !

Kak Khizz !

kak yati and me !

2009-09-09T01:07:00.004+08:00

helo helo helo !

oh well .. im so so so tired today . i swear i did like , many many many things today .
But yet , im trying to sleep .

okyeahh !

in e morning , mummy like woke me up .. with her loud loud voice and asked me to quickly pack my stuffs and place it in boxes . hell yeah , spent like 3 hours doing that . Plus , sweeping , mopping , cleaning my whole room . can i just say like i was doing SPRING CLEANING ? yeahh . yeah, becaus of tooo much bending , my backbone is so so pain . Summore , i was sick e previous day . So , took a bath around 1.15 .. and felt so fresshh ! but sadly, i had to get close with more dirt ! so waited for things to happen .. and for two people to come and help me :D

2+ , i started ... PAINTING MY ROOM ! hehehe . told ya ! i would paint my room hot pink . *winks* . yeahh , and happily , my dearest Syiqin and Wildan helped me . I swear , without their help , i dont think i can finish all e painting today . It 's really an experience for me coz like i would always ask my dad to paint for me . But sadly , i must manage on my own now . So got the help from my friends :D .. It was funn okee ! you'll feel like you had successfully done something . hehehe . Oh ya ! You know , syiqin and wildan very the enthusiastic okayy ! wanna see the prove? let me show you ... hehehe . i took this ... secretly :D ....

hehehe . im so busted , Bluekk ! hehehe . But well , at last it turn out really well , except for one part . But in the end manage to finish it . Coz , my daddy helped me to . hehehe , thanks Syiqin , Wildan , mum , dad . GOd , i really appreciate all your help . thank you so much !! i love you all .
kay , so here's roughly my room is ..

Well , if its in my room , its a darker colour .. almost like my blog background . But in this picture, the colour turns lighter . YEahhhhh ! at least tommorrow i only have to moveeeee all these furnitures . Veryy tiring . So after done with the painting , I had to go for KM2 training . So i rushed there .. had training .. reached home around 11.35 .. then , continue to touch up my painting . haishh ! tired tired . But , like what someone says , I ain't a human ; i dunno whats 'tired' . hehehehe . whatever!

Soooo , tommorrow , e whole day i have training . haishhh ! kay , i CAN go through it . Hopefully . I guess , i have to make myself rest now laahh .. i made a promise to sleep !

Sayang sayang , i misss youuuuuuuuuuu !
biler mau jumpa ? hahaha.
10 more daysss and fasting is overrrr ! woohhooo .
i love you so so muchh . and i hope ur love for me is not fading ...=(

okyeahh .
goodbye .

holidays .

2009-09-07T13:20:00.001+08:00

halu halu !

oh ggrreeatt ! now , i can have my one week break peacefully . Ease my mind and just relax at wherever i wanna be .
Hmm , but somehow it is kind of boring . Especially , when you're alone at home . It feels so lonely and there's no one you can actually talk to right ? haish . so lonely ..

Well , holidays doesnt mean so great to me though . Know why ? Homeworks are piling upp ! hahah . yeahh . i have like load of homework for one week . What's with my school? When it was june holidays , not may homewroks were given , and for this one week , it feels like one month work . Damn it ! crazy teachers . Somehow , i also have to give up my time for my training for this saturday's performance and also the 25th . Big events coming up ! urgghh .
&& not forgetting i have to paint my room too ! hahah . Syiqin , ikhlas tak ni ? hahahaah . (=

ohkey , so lets talk bout yesterday , and yesterday yesterday . hahahaah !

Yesterday 1st , 060909 .

Well , early in the morning , mum woke me up . Saying that whole family will be going johor . So fine , cancelled my tuition and decided to follow . Reached johor around , 1230 . Then , i dont know where my parents bring all of us to , and it was this place , selling many2 Kuehs . yeahh , so we went to bought kuehs for Hari Raya , so at least half part is done for Hari Raya . Then we finished there around 2+ , Proceed to Extra , bought stuffs . Bought drink for Hari Raya too (= we were done around 4 .. Then decided to take a look at our 'incomplete' house over there . Then went jusco , ate Secret recipe for breakfast . and proceed home :D

Yesterday yesterday , 050909 .
Went out with my dearest Nadrah . heheeh =p Coincidently , we were wearing black and white . hehe . Then reached there arond 4+ . So walk2 look at all the clothes there . Then around 5.15 , wan joined us and met at TKC . then , walk2 .. decided to go raja kuih , since jack , and other memberz were working there. huahua ! so , breakfast at haigh road there . Yann also joined us . Saw mok . heheh , da matrep btol ehk . Then , around 8.30+ , decided to go malay village to watch performance from Tedja & DSP . yeahh , overall greatt show (= . hahs .
Dhen , decided to wait for mr.khairil khusaini instead of goin off with KM2 . so long never meet rite .. so wait for hym lahh . but meet also for a while . saddd =( nevermine , we'll go out someday , somehow okeyh dear ?

okyeah , so thats it for today . well , i dont know what i wanna do for the next 4hrs + . hahaah . maybe sleep and oso watch videos . nyehehehehe .

oh ya ! to those who are taking N lvls now ,
GOOD LUCK and hope you'll pass (=

i miss my dearest so so muchhh ! when can i see you again ? =(

goodbye peeps .

2009-09-04T23:59:00.001+08:00

heyy world.

Sorry for not posting for such such a long timee . Been very busy with school and especially KM2 training .
Due to that , i'll get easily tired . Especially , on e fasting month ehy .

Well , just came back from the bazaar agaen .

Todayy , breakfast at Beach Road . yeahh . Then , around 8.30 , decided to go geylang with abang saudare ; Wan and familly . so walkwalkwalk . hmm , to me that place is boring already lahhs . Everytime go there . of course boring . heheeh . Hmm , then around 10+ , need to go home .. so wanna buy food . Wan accompanied me while the family wait somewhere .. && bumped into Aisyah , Lilnanakido && Wanie (= . haha . Then , go home .

i'll be posting really short coz im so so so tired , you know ? must type2 .. heheh . Lazy lah !
I'll post a long one 2moro kae , **hopefully** . hehehe .

To my dear Khairil Khusaini ;

Im missing you . Im missing you . Im missing you . Im missing you ..
Im missing you like hellll lah ! hahhaha .
i miss the times when we joke around , the times when you're beside me ..
Your touch , your hugs , your kisses ..
Well , i guess , i can just look at your photos =(
really hoping to see you ...
i hope our love's not fading , promise ?
i love youuu so muchhh!

goodbye world .

; oh ya , to blogger anonymous whom tag me ..
' im not close to Fit . We're just school mates aye . '

2009-09-04T23:42:00.000+08:00

Tagged by Nurul .

1) Besides lips, where is your favourite spot to get kissed?
; cheeky cheeks !

2) How do you feel when you woke up this morning?
; blurr like sotong .

3) Who is the last person you took picture with?
; Nadrah oh nadrah .

4) Would you consider yourself spoiled?
; lol . why would i ?

5) Would you donate blood?
; yeah . if i myself have enough blood . -__-

6) Have you had a best friend of the opposite sex?
; yeayyeay . used to .

7) Do you want someone dead?
; i ain't cruel , you know ?

8) What does the last message says?
; Esok jangan paitao ehk...

9) What are you thinking right now?
; My loving boyfriend . ' Where is he now ? '

10) Do you wish someone is with you right now?
; Mr.Khairil Khusaini only !

11) What time did you went to bed last night?
; 1+ , while waiting for him to call . heheh .

12) Where did you buy the t-shirt you're wearing right now?
; Err , its a singlet .

13) Is someone in your mind now?
; Every hour , minute , seconds .

14) Who is the last person you texted?
Nadrahhh !

10 people tagged to do quiz
; None .

2009-09-01T23:42:00.000+08:00

heyys people .

im so so so tired today . Been having dance prac since afternoon till nite . Tired oke !
tommorrow got practice again . Can die liao ! hahahaha .
Nothing to muchh to post .

Feeling all tired , depressed and i dont know what else .

Let me give some words to my loved ones .

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it feels so different being so left out .
it feels so different without you all by my side .
i think , all of us did went and run away .
i can swear to god that im missing each and everyone of you .
Remember how we joke ?
The craziest , funniest things that happenend to us ?
When problems interfered our lives .. we would talk things out .
No matter how much we insulted each other , we are still together .
But sadly , things are changing .. i dont know why .
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to my dearest besties , im sorry if you think that i've changed .
but i really don't know what i've changed .
maybe any of you would like to voice out ?
I miss our times .
& especially , every single of you .
I need you all !
Lets be like how we used to be ?

2009-08-31T21:34:00.000+08:00

Currently , posting while eating chicken kebaabbb ! delicious ! huahua .

Okee , how unlucky can my day be today !

Well , my parents and aunty planned to eat at geylang for breakfast . Yeahh , so me and aunty went out around 5 , then we will meet my parents n sis over there . So , reached geylang around 5.20 ... walk2 around 1st.
So , while walking , i was listening to my ipod .. and also looking down at my ipod lahh ... then i didnt noe that there was a small traffic light .. so i went to cross .. this was the worst part .. it was RED man ..

I ALMOST WENT IT AN ACCIDENT !

i was so so shocked ! My aunty was already shouting , Red light! red light ! then , the car horned at me so loudly and he gave a full break just because of me ! everyone looked at me .. i was so so shocked ! i mean like , ohmygod , imagine if that driver does not give a full break , i could have be in the hospital right now or even worse , die from that accident .. then .. no more Istilah Susanti ! huahuahua . kayyh , kidding . Im so blessed that im still alive now . and thank god that anything did not happen just now . Thanks to that driver too . phewww !

Not just that which happened to me .
While walking in that crowdy , squizy , noisy bazaar .. a bad thing happened to me !
One pervetic guy touched my butt !! lol , it may sound funny but he was fucking rude .
Well , my sis was infront of me .. there was a lady behind me .. then you know .. in a bazzar .. people will walk in diff directions . So that guy was walking in a diff direction .
while i was walking , i really felt someone touch my butt ! so i quickly turned around .. but tht guy walk fast . Then the lady behind me also turned around to see tht guy .. i think she saw what happened . then , i stopped to see where is that guy lah .. then that lady , said to me .. in malay ..

" kurang ajar ehk tu laky ! pegang2 orang tk tentu pasal ! kurang ajar betol !.. dia yg bawak helmet tu !"

and i just agreed of what she said and of course feeling angry ! motherfucker ! sorry for my words people .
Actually my sis wanted to track him and to confront him .. but i decided not .. coz when my sis gets angry .. the world goes upside down .. lol.. i mean we are at a bazaar . i dont want to create chaos . but i hope that guy get his bad repay back . motherF .

So gurls , watch ur back ! there are some stupid , idotic , pervertic , lunatic guys out there .

kayh , change topic .

OH oh ! Im paiting hot pink for my roonm ! woohhooo . not really that hot lah . but the colour looks peaceful to me .. So everytime i go in my room , i will feel relax . huahuahua . My mum says , it looks like a baby gurls colour . So what ? its beautiful to me .

&& this year , i'll be wearing GGRREEEENN ! hehehee . yeahh . I've planned that i wanted green and i dont care . Anyways , i've already ordered .. so no need to think bout that anymore . Now just got to think of when to paint my room . huahuahua !

okeyyh . Adios people !